Lyrical Souls [h.s]

10.3 - Fast Forward - Tour

The weeks had passed and the dreaded day had come. The day Harry left on tour. He'd been regularly around for more than 2 months, and I'd gotten used to it. It was difficult to see him leave while I stayed in London. But I didn't want to admit that. I was the proud strong independent woman who can handle being separated from her boyfriend. I was the one who declined the offer of going with him after all. I wanted to have my own life separated from his, and he understood that. But it didn't make this moment any easier.

'What do you mean you're not going with me to the airport!' He shouted.

'I don't want to go all the way there for just 5 minutes to go all the way back here just to say goodbye! We can say goodbye here! It's the same!'

'No it's not! It's half an hour less! Who knows when's the next time I'm going to see you!'

'Well, There's always Liam's birthday party! You're coming to that right?'

'Yes but that in the second half of August! That's like 5 months from now! It's like you don't even care if we see each other or not! Like you won't even miss me when I'm gone!'

'Don't be ridiculous! Of course, I'll miss you! We'll make something happen before. I promise.'

'And you'll come with me to the airport. Please!' He pleaded.

I roll my eyes and agreed.

After a long, tense drive to the airport. We walked through the crowds until we reached the security check.

'I wish airports were like in the old days where you can stay with me till the gate. Now there are security checks, and we have to say goodbye here.' He pulled me into a tight hug crying, ' I don't want to say goodbye. What if I lose you by being away so much? What if I come back and you're not here anymore?'

I looked at him surprised, tears in my eyes, I put both of my hands on his cheeks and I reassured him, 'Harry, you're not losing me, you have to stop worrying about that! I'm done running. I'll be here waiting for you to come back. I'll be here for as long as you want me to be.'

'Then why didn't you want to come here? Why don't you want to come to visit me? And don't give me the excuses, tell me the truth!'

'Because moments like these are very difficult. Each time one of us has to leave the other, it's getting harder and harder. It gets more painful. And I try my best to stay strong and not cry, not in front of you anyway. I'd just hate it to make it harder on you, having to see me cry knowing you can't do much about it. I understand you need to leave for tour and I'm okay with it and I support you, and in a day or two I'll be okay, I'll be used to it and I go back to my routine. But this specific moment, at the airport, saying goodbye. It's unbearable.' I lowered my head trying to hide the tears as they flew down freely.

'Hey, look at me. Think about it that way, for each sad goodbye airport moment, we'll get an even happier welcome back airport moment. And without the sad moment, we won't know the true value of the happy moment. It's all about balance.'

'Huh, that actually makes sense. It sucks, but it makes sense. Fine, you convinced me Styles.'

Harry looked at his watch, checking the time.

'I have to go now, I can't miss this flight.' He gave me one last teary kiss, on both ends.

'Goodbye Cassie. I'll miss you so much!'

'I'll miss you too, Harry! Have a safe flight! And text me when you land!'

He nodded and walked away.