Maylee Micheals
December 11,2019
9:30 p.m
I stormed upstairs to my room immediately locking the door behind me. I slid down to the floor with my back against the wall.
I felt my whole body shaking in anger and hurt. To know my son was alive after all these years was a slap in the face.
To know that not only did he take my child away from me, but to place him in foster care out of all place.
I already knew the situation was going to be a sticky one. I just have to figure out how I was supposed to go about it.
Soft knocks on the door caused me to wipe the tears falling from my eyes.
"Maylee, baby open up." Zander's smooth voice came from behind the door.
I stood to my feet placing my hands on the doorknob. I was terrified to open it because I had to face more of my demons tonight. Seeing Mel tonight opened up a can of worms.
I never went into detail with anybody about what exactly happened that caused me to run from Tallahassee. What caused me to become one the person everybody sees me as today.
Why I never rushed into a relationship after being with Mel. Why I just wanted to be friend with benefits with Tahj.
"Just let me in May. I just wanna be here for you. You don't have to tell me anything just let me hold you." I opened the door before I could comprehend what I was doing.
He walked into the room immediately wrapping his arms around me. I placed my head into his chest feeling tears immediately cloud my vision as soon as he wrapped his arms around me.
He rubbed my back up and down slowly soothing me. I buried my face into his chest not caring about the tears staining his shirt. He sat down on the bed pulling me onto his lap.
We sat in silence for a minute before I decided to speak up.
"I'm sorry for your shirt." I picked my head up from his chest before wiping the remaining tears falling from my eyes.
"It's okay. Are you alright now?" He asked softly as he wiped the tears from my eyes. I shook my head before placing it on the shoulder.
"No. It's a lot you know. Facing your old demons head on. Having people think of you less because of a lie. Having your business aired out."
"I can't imagine how you feel right now. But I want you know I'm will be here for you every step of the way." He rubbed my back up and down. I lifted my head up before looking him in his eyes.
"I think it's time for me to finally talk about it. I been carrying this burden for years and it only weighed me down." I got out his lap and sat next to him grabbing his hand into mine.
"Baby, you don't have to do this." I placed my hand up signaling for him to be quiet.
"It's fine. I met Mel when I was 20 years old. I was fresh on Florida A&M campus and he was one of the first males to approach me. His personality drew me in first before his looks did. I fell head over heels for him but things changed a year into our relationship."
I took a break looking up a Zander seeing that he was actually invested in what I was saying.
"He slowly became the monster I know today. It was small things at first like controlling what I wore and where I went. Then, he slowly started to isolate me from friends and family. Shit to this day, I'm not close to my mother."
He played with his fingers taking a deep breathe. That was the easy part but now it was time to go deeper into our situation.
"A couple months after that I found out I was pregnant. It was the happiest day of my life. Mel became really supportive and excited about our baby. Especially after finding out we were having a boy. In the beginning of my pregnancy I started saving to get me and my son out of the situation."
Tears started to stain my cheeks thinking about the next part of this story. I played with his fingers trying to calm myself down. I couldn't look at him in his eyes because I would lose all my composure.
"I was 8 months pregnant and I had everything situated to leave him once and for all. I waited until he left the house and grabbed the bags I had packed away. I remember opening the door and seeing Mel standing there with eyes resembling the color of coal. I dropped the bags and tried to rush upstairs as fast I could. He grabbed my leg and dragged me down the stairs. To add onto the pain he kicked me multiple times in my stomach. I felt helpless as I was left there to bleed out."
I looked up at Zander seeing the tears falling down his face. I wiped them as he wiped mine.
"I woke up in the hospital 2 days later to be told I gave birth to a still born. Finding out four years later that I have a child out there is heartbreaking. I feel just as helpless as I was 4 years ago knowing I'm not there to protect him." Tear streamed down my eyes as Zander placed me onto his lap.
"I promise we'll get him back okay." I nodded feeling him kiss my forehead.
"I promise mamas that your baby boy back into your arms." I closed my eyes praying that it came true. I would finally be able to hold him in my arms and shower him with all the love in the world.
