Another case of murder

Feelings 🙃

Chapter 11

I took the coldest and longest shower ever, I just sat there thinking about nothing and everything, I was confused but I didn't know why, I felt something but I didn't know what and at the same time I felt empty, I should be happy that at least we have a name and a face but I wasn't sure if that was enough for me, Chloe had sent a whole team to James cooper's apartment building but he had bailed and destroyed the whole place with him leaving no evidence no nothing, now we were back to square one. The lawyer had no family, no wife, no kids, so I was the last person standing.
He was cruel to be going after even the children for the sins of their parents, things they know nothing about
I rinsed myself and wore the robe hanging on the rail, I stood in the front of the mirror and stared at my reflection, I had forgotten my pills but thankfully there has been no headaches. My eyes looked sunken but the bags were gone. I felt emotionally frustrated and tired. I exhaled as I walked barefooted to the main room, dried of my hair, I pulled of the robe and put on matching black bra and panties, I was in the mood for all black today.
I heard a brief knock and my door swung open
"Wow! " harry exclaimed and turned to face the door
"Am sorry I didn't think.... "
"Yeah yeah, its not like its something you haven't seen before" I muttered putting on a black top, I wore black boxers and picked up a brush for my hair.
"You can turn now"
"Oh, sorry about that "
"Yeah sure, so what's up? "
"I just wanted to..... you know, check on you"
"Am fine"I said with a shrug
"You keep saying that but you don't look it"
I exhaled,
"What do you expect, another person died today and this time on our watch and I mean this James guy is still out there"
"I know, but you have to take things easy, don't be so hard on yourself" he said walking towards me
"Yeah"
"So.... Wanna go for a walk? I still owe you that tour after all"he said with his trademark smirk
A walk or sit here all day planning my suicide, the former sounded great
"Yes, in fact, you do"I said with a smile.

Harry had almost everything here, he could live for years without bothering to go outside, there was a barn, a stable, a small farm that Schmidt was 'playing around' with according to him. I was seeing different sides of him, the way he played with the horses feeding the carrots and sugar, he was quick to get his hands dirty with the cows, he looked so carefree and it got me smiling, I wanted to stay in this moment forever.
We walked back to the house quietly enjoying every bit of the nature around us, the occasional bird chirp, the sound of the wind in the trees, the clasps of the crickets flapping their wings to flight, it was so peaceful and serene
"You look gloomy again, you need to relax Ashley"
"Well, I can't exactly 'relax' when someone out there is after my life" I retorted
"Wow, slow your reins, I was just trying to help "
I exhaled
"I know, its just not easy on my part"
"Well life is short and If you are going to die, you might as well make the most of it"
"What did you just say? " I asked wide eyed
He looked amused,
"What? "
He burst out laughing
"Did you see your face when I said that, you looked so hilarious "
I rolled my eyes " yeah yeah turn me into your laughing stock"
"Hey, that's not what I meant" he said turning me to face him.
His face was inches away from mine that I could feel his scented breath blowing across my face, my heartbeat picked up its pace
"You look so tired, are you tired? " he asked in an almost whisper
"A little bit, my legs are weak as hell tho"
He smiled, mischievously
"Okay harry what ever you are thinking please don't do it"
He laughed and before i knew it, I was off the ground, God, this was so embarrassing, i blushed into his chest and caught a good whiff of his scent, it was intoxicating
"Common harry, put me down" I said struggling to come down
"Stay still okay? "He said smiling
"No, this is so embarrassing "
"Its just me and you, what's so embarrassing about that" he said heading towards the house with me in his arms
"Well Schmidt would see us" I groaned mentally, lame argument Ashley
"I would tell him to turn the other way"
"What of Linda? "
"I would tell her to shut down"
Oh, he was so stubborn
"We are here" he said opening the glass, he let me down slowly but his arms were still around me, our eyes locked and I swear I felt a whole swarm of butterflies dancing to 'drake's in my feelings' in my stomach, I felt goosebumps things I never believed were real, just mere cliches, when did i start to feel this way about Harry, nothing made sense anymore but as I looked into his depth less eyes, his sumptuous lips, only one thought consumed my mind, I wanted to know what they felt like, would they be soft? Their taste, would I get the taste of the strawberry we shared earlier? I don't know what came over me but I stood on the tip of my toes and I placed my lips gently but firmly on his, I know women are not meant to make the first move but fuck all those rules, you only live once and I wasn't planning to pass on this opportunity. Immediately my lips touched his, it was like I lighted a torch of flame in him, his hands went to the back of my head holding me firmly in place, he angled his head to get a better access, I felt his tongue run along my bottom lip seeking access, I opened my mouth to him and his tongue snaked in, his lips were softer than i imagined and ooooh there was the strawberry taste, he was kissing me like his life depended on it, like a starved animal, God it felt so good, so right, I couldn't help the soft moan that escaped my mouth as his tongue rampaged my mouth, I couldn't get enough, my hands wanted to move, to explore this beautiful man, I placed my hands on his chest and ran it down to his rock solid abs, my hands were snaking into his shirt when he pulled away.
"What is it? " I asked trying to catch my breath
"I just..... We are going too fast"
"Oh, I thought you wanted this"I said searching his eyes
"I do, I want this but not just this or sex or whatever, I want more than just that" he said raising my chin to meet his eyes"I want you... And am scared that if we go too fast we might lose whatever this is that we have even before we own it" he added
Wow, I didn't see that one coming
I exhaled
"And what do you think it might be? "I asked between a now calmed breath
"Well, for starters I know am attracted to you on a whole lot of levels and I think you feel it too"
Was I attracted to Harry, I wasn't sure of anything, not even my emotions right now
"I don't know Harry, am not sure
of what am even feeling " I said truthfully
"Hey" he said reaching for my shoulders
"Its okay, I understand, you are going through a lot right now and this would only complicate things further, its okay..... We have time"
I've never been so thankful in my life that he didn't turn this awkward
I smiled
"Thanks for the walk, it was... Relaxing"
"You are welcome, so what do you want to do, its just 6:30 pm"
"Netflix? "
"Wow, I wouldn't tag you as someone that knows what TV was" he joked
"You crazy" I said with a smile
"Netflix it is then" he said
"Bagsy on the remote" he added
"Bagsy? "
"Oh like dibs" he explained
"Oh well you are making the popcorn"