Paroxysm

You lose, I won

Waking up haunts me.
Just wanted to be left in my dreams,
Where I built my own realm.
You were not there to taunt me.

Every step which lesser the distance between me and school.
Makes my body iced cool.

The heartbeat was fast like a racing car.
Mind tramp on the trail to find a plan to escape from getting a new scar.

The blade is my best friend.
Sleeping pills are my night companion.
You have a fake friend.
Starting to the end in the school walk behind you your minions.

Hated to look my image,
In the mirror on the wall.
You have already made my image,
In my brain, imagining whom I always fall.

When I hear my name,
It sounds so strange.
You made me get addicted to the name,
Which you always speak with a loud range.

I think you made the damage to the core,
Where repair can't be done.
Taking birth on this earth, I abhor.
My own will have abandon,
My SOUL.

To remove the scars you give me,
I stand in rain till late.
I wish this shouldn't be written in my fate.

Why you hated me so much? 
Why you make me hate myself so much?
Why you gave me pain which can't be healed? 
Why you made me make a blade my best friend?
Why you want so fast my life's end? 

"KILL YOURSELF, "the last letter from you.
Happy, I listened to you .

Standing in front of a glass.
Standing on a matt of grass.
Poison in a hand.
One tight slap on a cheek land.
On the floor poison land.
From eyes, tears shed.

Mom asked the whole story.
You were the villain and I was the heroine in that story.

All loosened screws in my mind,
Was tightened by the slap.
When I put my head on her lap,
Warmth, love, safeness I find.

She makes me know my worth.
She told me my value in her life from my birth.
Told me to throw your words in the dustbin which was unworthy.

Her words full of positiveness,
Kill the venom of your negativeness,
Which you had stuffed in my mind.
To see the love she opened my eyes which were earlier blind.

I was at the urge to close my book.
She came and asked to have a look.
She ripped the page which was titled, " THE END. "
She handed me the pen to continue the story until God wants it to end.

In my life, she replaces the blade.
With sleeping pills, she trade,
To become my night companion.

She is an ANGEL, you are DEVIL.
She is LOVE, you are VENOM.
She is CREATOR, you are DESTROYER.
she HELPED me, you were ready to KILL me.
She is LIGHT, you are DARK.

You didn't believe it when you saw me again.
You thought you won the game.
But, you were defeated by her and me in your game.
You lost All your fame.

You lose, I won.

Q: Have you ever been bullied?

Please, when you are bullied fight against it.  Don't hide it from your parents or from someone you can trust and I m sure they will help. Don't let the negativeness dominate you. It will take to the world of depression and depression is a very bad thing on this. Please, take against bullying if it happens with you or with anyone. One step against it will be equal to a whole journey. 

If anyone wanted to talk to me. Feel free to talk and don't hesitate to talk. I will love to help you. 

Thank you very much for reading.