Love is love (xfactor)

26: Home🖤

After me and Louis drove back last night we just stayed in a hotel and we are going to the hospital first thing today to see Luke and my parents, we are staying here till Wednesday and while we are here we will still be rehearse as Louis is mentoring me.

We are just going to tell everyone that Louis, Simon and me spoke and decided on Louis mentoring me for a week because i was finding everything with Luke hard and Louis has been through a-lot with his mum so we thought he could help me get through it.

I am still so upset about my boys and mols leaving, who am i going to spend my time with now and who is going to be there for me, i know i have Scar and Shan and i love them but mols and united vibe were like my brothers and sisters.

I got out of the bed in our hotel room, Louise was still sleeping, i watched his nostrils move as he breathed, i leant down and kissed his lips slightly before going to the bathroom and getting clothes on, i picked clothes up from my house last night as my mum and dad were at the hospital till late.

When i was dressed and my hair was done i got out my phone, i posted a picture with me and all the boys from a couple days ago and posted it on my instagram captioning it

'I Love these boys so much, you guys are all my big brothers now and i cant thank you all enough for being here with me through everything, you guys have been amazing, the best boys i could of asked for in the house, im so sad you guys are leaving, i don't know what ill do without my boys in the house! I will come and see you guys all the time though! I love you guys all so much! Xx @kieranharrisonofficial @jack.tisdall @elliothorne @jon_guelas @_blaiseofficial_

I actually teared up writing that i love them so so much! They will always be my brothers now. I saw Louis start to stir in the bed and i went and sat next to him and his eyes opened slightly, he smiled as did i

"Hello gorgeous" i said stroking his hair, he lay his head on my shoulder

"Hi beautiful, you should've woke me up, we need to go see your brother" Louis said rushing to get up and i smiled

"Lou its fine sit down, i just want to sit with my boyfriend without it being rushed or during work" i said and he smiled but sat down anyway, i smiled and he wrapped his arm around me

"How are you?" He asked and i shrugged

"I don't know, I'm so upset about mols and the boys leaving like they were all my best friends in the house" i said and he frowned a little

"Im sorry for sending molly home" he said softly and i took his hand and intertwined our fingers

"Its fine, its your job" i said and he smiled a little and kissed the back of my hand, i just lay my head on his shoulder

"I just don't know who I'm going to talk to anymore, i would always go to molly or one of the boys" i said

"Thats what I'm for, I'm like always in the house anyway and if I'm not, your welcome in my flat at anytime ill always be here Reags" he said and i smiled and looked him in the eye

"Same with me you will always have me" i said to him and he pecked my lips

"I love you so so much" i said cupping his face and he smiled and kissed my nose

"I love you more" he smirked and then got up to get ready and i just sat on my phone

"Lou will we go for breakfast?" I shouted to where ever he was

"Yeah woo" he shouted excitedly like a child and i laughed

"Calm down babe" i shouted back and i heard him chuckle!