a damaged girl

falling apart

i held it in for so long

i couldn't hold it for much longer

but i had to wait

he couldn't see me like this

it would ruin me.

but i couldn't stop once i started

the first tear fell and if it was on cue it fell like a waterfall

i felt as if i would drown in my own tears

his yelling faded to white noise

all i could hear was muffled screams

i couldn't see anything but the tears the kept falling

my tear stained face looked fragile

almost as if it would break by the slightest touch

the streams kept coming for what felt like hours

the knot in my throat made it impossible for me to talk

i felt like i couldn't breathe

i just wanted to stop crying

it made me feel weak but it was too late

the tears fell as my body shook with sobs

i was falling apart

and he didn't care