Nina always came up with the best ideas.
Her hair was long and brown
covered in barrettes
and she had a smile that
reveled in nature.
She helped me hunt ghosts
sled in the backyard
and was
completely fearless.
Her art was scattered all over her
perfect wooden house,
her love for horses her main attraction
and her pet bird would only let her touch him,
for she had a way with animals
like no other.
She was green inside,
all quiet witticisms and
adventure-lined soul
with the soles of her shoes
worn out so that
she never even bothered to wear them.
I wanted to be like her.
I wanted to be free.
She was the most interesting person
in the entire world, closest thing I had
to a sister.
I had my blond hair high in a bun
pins close-knit and stabbing,
leotard disguised under my jeans,
a common practice
when I devoted my life to dance at the time
(I was ten years old).
I was in their orange colored kitchen doing homework
before ballet class snatched my focus
in the next two hours.
She came bounding in
and told me we should go for a walk
because she found an empty space behind the park
that was covered in tall grass and winding trees.
We skipped and ran down the hill,
racing across the soccer field
(we ran everywhere -- there was never walking with Nina)
all the way, more than a mile
to a small tree that made us look sun-splotched
and ran our hands over its roughness,
picking at the bark.
She climbed to the top almost
seamlessly,
her shoes long forgotten at home
while i stayed below,
too nervous to attempt to try and reach
what I believed was
beyond my skill.
"It's like the Shire,
you know,
from Lord of the Rings?"
I offered instead,
trying to match some part of her
intoxicating adventure --
do you understand how
wonderful you are to me?
"Yeah," she smiled,
and did her version of a Gollum impression
and I laughed and laughed into the setting sun.
She never deserved
any of the things that happened to her summer soul
once we got older,
sadder,
hurt for the first time
by friends, lovers,
distancing ourselves
as we navigated through
this red tide of feelings.
But connected in our clasped hands and tears
were the purest of memories of
being friends since birth.
CITEȘTI
Park Benches and Polaroids
PoezieBiking, late night summers, falling in love, a yearning for adventure, and the color yellow: a poetry collection about introspection, love, and change from my own life, all the way up until I turned 20.