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13.

Ray Ray

"Don't ask me to get nothing because every time yo ass want something the answer is no." I yelled to the back of the car where Tay Tay was silently crying. "I don't know what the hell you cryin for because I told you not to take the mattress. Get the sheets. Hard headed ass. Man the fuck up cause you going over there every day after school to clean up her apartment for the next two months. Up there breaking shit I don't have the money to pay for. And you wonder why I don't like takin your ass to the store. When we get over here don't ask her for nothing. You eat your dinner. Pick your room. Take a shower and take your ass to bed. I don't give a fuck if you not tired."

Roc looked at me sideways the whole time I was fussing at Tay Tay. "Chill out. Aint like he meant to break the plant." he said looking at the road.

Tay Tay was mumbling something. "Speak up lor nigga." I said. Im mad right now so yeah he feeling the heat.

"I said who puts plants in a hallway where people walk? It was bound to get broken sooner or later." Tay Tay argued.

"Right and you just had to be the one. Don't say nothing else to me until tomorrow." I turned back in my seat and the rest of the ride was silent.

We got to Nicki house and these guys helped with taking our things out of Roc's cars. "Ard yo, hit me up later. I gotta go over Masey's house." he said getting back in his car.

"Yeah go head whatever. Telling me like Im yo daddy." I said waving him off.

"Mane the way you was talking to my nephew like you crazy you might as well be." he said driving off. I should throw a rock at his precious car. But that will be something else I would have to pay for.

I walked inside and went in the kitchen. Nicki was sitting on the counter with what look like pictures all around her. I went into the fridge to find something to eat Im stressed. "Uh, just because you staying here don't mean you can eat my food like you dammit crazy." she said looking at a picture.

"Im hungry and you don't look like the type to cook." I said.

"I know how to cook. Been knew how I just don't." she never looked my way she stared at that picture.

"What are you doin anyway? People gotta cook and eat here." I asked getting a capris sun.

She never answered me. Just looked at the picture. "Your ears too big not to hear what I just said."

"Shut up. Im thinking." she got up hold the picture in her right hand and stood up on the counter looking around at the rest of the pictures. She looked around for a good minute and damn near fell off the counter trying to get to one of the hundred damn pictures on the counter.

Nicki

Based off of memory I remember my mother having a somewhat bigger stomach when she left. I found a picture with me and her next to each other in the park sitting on the edge of the water fountain. She was wear a tight blue tank top and some tan shorts. She was never the type to wear anything extra unless necessary. It doesn't matter what the hell I looked like because something was off about this picture.

I found another one about six months before the one I had in my hand already. Her stomach was flatter than the one before. My mother was pregnant. She or my father never said anything to me about this. I could have had a little brother or sister. What if its still alive and they need it for collateral?

Ray Ray looked me with his eyebrows raised. I don't know if my father is here so I told him to come up to my room whenever.

I left the rest of the pictures there on the counter. I only needed these two. I pinned them to door of my closet and sat on the floor and stared at them some more. When he came in he sat right next to me. Probably waiting for me to explain to him what I was thinking about.

"You see the top picture?" He nodded. "Look at her stomach."

"Okay. So she skinny. What does that have to do with her being took?" he asked looking at me dumbfounded.

"Look at the bottom one. See her stomach." I said pointing. He looked between both pictures. "No one can pick up that much weight like that. And you can see her belly button." I stated.

"So you tryna say she was pregnant when she was kidnapped." he said. I nodded. "So there's two of you?"

I smacked him upside his head. "Dumbass. She is dead. But the baby could be alive. We just gotta find any record of it being born."

"How the hell we pose to do that and we can barely leave the house. Tay Tay the only one with the most freedom around here." he said laying back on the floor looking at the ceiling. Made up of a bunch of magazine clippings and some of my baby and childhood pictures.

"You really think I don't know how to leave without him ever knowing." I said. I tried to get up to do something but he grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him. "What?" I said annoyed. He always wanna be grabbing on me.

"If you not too busy, I would like to know bout you and me." he said licking his lips.

"Fuck you talkin bout, you and me? There is no you and me. Im Nicki Wen. You are Rayan Smith." I said pulling my arm away from his hand. I forgot what the hell I was going to do before he started talking about dumb shit that will never happen.

"Girl stop frontin like you not feelin a nigga. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you." he smirked.

My face got real hot when he said that.

"Its all in your face." he added.

"Stop staring at me like you want something." I said. I don't know why I just didn't move. Plus this is my room he need to leave but then again...

"I do want something." he smiled.

"What?" I asked.

Without warning he kissed me for the third time. This time I felt everything us disappear and it was just me and him. Like for real his lips was soft and his tongue tasted like my capris sun. I never in all my life have ever been kissed so softly and passionately. I wanted this to go on for forever. I wrapped my arms around his neck and got on top of him. My knees on both sides of his. I felt his hands wrap around my waist. Never did my lips tear away from his when we repositioned ourselves.

But like all good things it came to an end. He looked me in my eyes and I looked in his. "I got you. Only if you got me." he said smiling pushing my hair back.

"I got you."