BLOOD BROTHERS (BOYXBOY)

PATT

My Story...

I'm an escort although I have a regular job di sapat ang kita ko sa trabaho. Got paid for sex coz of that I will follow what my clients wants, most of them want to do it with drugs. I was diagnosed na HIV+ last month pero matagal ko nang nararamdaman yung symptoms takot lang ako, I experienced joint pains, fever and diarrhea, naospital pa ko coz sobrang bumaba yung bp at electrolytes ko. When I got the courage to do so nagumpisa ang treatment ko sa hub sa Shaw, apprently I have Syphilis as well so I had my first dose of Pen G and we started my Isoniazid and Cotri. I'm feeling hopeful at happy that time kasi napapansin ko na gumagaling ako, no more joint pains, diarrhea and fever. Pati SY ko gumagaling. But nobody nows what I'm going through.

Let's jump to the present, before I went to the clinic napansin ko na na parang may rashes sa mukha ko, di ko masyadong pinansin coz I thought dahil lang sa sakit ng ulo. I had my 3rd dose of Pen G at dapat magstart na ko magtake ng ARV. After the consultation I go to my work, when I got home thats when the horror happens. I had a splitting headache, yung gugustuhin mo nang tanggalin yung ulo mo sa sakit, I also had fever w/c is normal I believe coz of Pen G. The next day the rashes begin to spread so ininuman ko lang ng antiallergy bka kasi may nakain lang ako na allergic ako w/c I dont know kasi wala talaga kong any allergy sa pagkain. The following day paggising ko my face was swollen, my mouth has sores hanggang sa dila at hirap akong kumain. I texted my hub doctor sabi niya itigil ko muna lahat ng medication na tinetake ko and start drinking benadryl 3x a day, I followed what he said pero pagdating ng gabi para na kong kinulayan ng jobos sa pula. Pumunta ko ng ospital with my Mom and Dad, I need to give them the history of what I'm taking dahil magagaling ang doktor mabilis nilang nalaman yung totoong sakit ko w/o me saying it. They ordered some test but the sad part is sinabi nila sa parents ko w/o my consent. Iyakan sa ospital syempre. When the doctors got back apprently my HMO wont cover me, alam ko naman yun that's why I'm hoping na ititreat muna nila yung lumabas sa mukha at katawan ko as primary reason I'm there but they refused any treatment baka daw kasi hindi allergic reaction yung nasakin kundi opportunistic infection, I got mad so I opted to go home and pay the ER out of pocket.

Final Diagnosis sa Hospital: Steven-Johnson Syndrome related to medication (Cotrimoxazole)

I continued the benadryl at home & texted my hub doctor. Mabait naman si dok kaya pinapunta niya ko sa kabilang clinic niya since di pa siya magduduty sa Shaw, I still went kahit sobrang hirap ako maglakad at ang hapdi ng kamay ko, pinakita ko yung lab results na ginawa sa hospital and he gave me additional medications for SJS.

As I'm writing this, I'm just in my 2nd day pf steroid theraphy, nagimprove naman kaya lang ang hindi nagiimprove yung yung mouth sores at yung hapdi sa dila, di ako makakain sobrang badtrip ko na talaga kasi pano ako lalakas kung di ako makakakain. I eat soft diet lang yung kayang lunukin diretso w/c is not giving enough nutrition. We are increasing my steroid dose and if no signifant improvement on day 4, i'll be admitted to San Lazaro.

With all that happened, ang pinaka naaawa ako bukod sa sarili ko ay sa Mommy ko. Alam kong nagpapakatatag lang siya for me, humuhugot lang siya ng lakas sa Daddy ko. Nagpapasalamat ako sa Diyos at may magulang ako na maalaga, maunawain at mapagmahal pero hirap na hirap na din ako. I cant even look at my face in the mirror sa pangit at nakakaawang itsura ko ngayon. I can live with the rashes in my extremities forever mawala lang yung sa labi at sa dila para makakain na ko at lumakas para makapgtrabaho ng malinis at maayos.

My faith is really shaken right now. Naniniwala akong may Diyos pero sarado na yata ang puso Niya sakin sa dami kong kasalanan. I wont commit suicide but I'm thinking na sana pagtulog ko mamya di na lang ako magising para tapos na.

Pasensiya na at mahaba ang kwento ko... wala lang akong masabihan ng sama ng loob that's why I created this secret account for me to share my feelings right now..

-Patt