WARNING!! : This chapter is depressing (I think). It has suicidal stuff. Read at your own risk
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"If you wait a bit longer, I'll go get you"
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Taehyung's P.O.V
It's been 3 years. Three years of me living alone, spending my nights crying.
Today was her funeral. My diamonds funeral.
I got dressed in all black and bought a bouquet of flowers.
I visited her grave.
When I got there, the first thing I did, I touched the cold stone. It reminded me of our past.
"Sojunghan", I said. Saying that name was now a bit useless without her here with me.
"It's really been a long time. I miss you so damn much. I'm really living a great life you know" I lied.
I looked up at the sky. My tears were now visible. I was crying.
"It's really hard you know. Every time I think of you, I feel joy and pain at the same time"
I placed the bouquet of flowers on the ground.
"Camellia and Rose mallows" I said. "Your favorite kind of flowers"
I replayed my memories of us as if it was a movie.
I was now sobbing.
"It's me that should've been in your place. You had 3 more days. Three days to spend with me. Why did you leave me that quick?" I cried.
"Sarang.. you don't have to worry now. Where ever you are, I'm sure you're in a good place. Irene was sent to the mental hospital"
Ever since Sarang left, I've been so depressed.
I spent 2 hours at her grave, telling her about my life.
Finally, I got home. I pulled up my sleeves and looked at my arm that was bruised with cuts and burns. I smiled bitterly. I grabbed a knife and did my thing. Something that I do every week.
It hurts. But now, I was used to the pain.
Blood was dripping on the floor.
"Sarang.. this isn't enough"
I looked at the ceiling. I looked at it as if I could see the sky through it. As if I could see Sarang.
This is what I've been doing for 3 years.
"Sarang, I love you. I'm sorry for all my wrong doings. I was terrible wasn't I? But thank you for still loving me. Thank you for still being with me. If I was in your place, I would never forgive myself. Thanks for forgiving me Sojunghan" I said. Now crying again.
"Sarang, I'm coming for you... Wait for me" I said before stabbing myself while smiling, my boxy smile. She must've really missed it.
