No Time To Heal [BTS J.Jk]

XIII

Jungkook didn't want to do anything else but curl up into a small ball and cry himself to sleep. He wanted to grip his hair and pull them until he bled. Until the pain would be strong enough to distract him from the heart-piercing words he can't seem to block out. But he can't. He can't do that right now because his brother was still staring at him with full intensity and curiosity.

At that exact moment, the older one of the two decided to break the silence. „Are you ok?" And that was all that needed to be said for the younger to have his hopes rise up once again. Let's see how long it'll take for it to come crashing down again, shall we?

At this point, the little maknae wanted to do nothing more than to fling himself at his brother and pour his heart out while bawling.

But of course, he couldn't. If he couldn't tell his hyungs, how could he tell his actual hyung?

The voice didn't even need to tell him that. It was already common knowledge for him not to tell anyone for everyone's sake. Maybe it even developed into a habit already.

„Yeah, yeah... don't worry about me." The same sentence over and over again. Without even batting an eyelash, he was able to lie straight to Junghyuns face. He was not even breaking a sweat as normally he would have in the past.

He should have known better because a frown appeared on Junghyuns usually indifferent face.

„Telling me not to worry just makes me worry more, you know? "

The idol's eyes widened at this statement. Hands sweaty and clenched together tightly.

You messed up badly. Now he has more unnecessary worries because of you.

Should I have said something else? Should I have used other words? Phrased it better?

He will pressure and corner you until you tell him what's wrong. He will waste his precious time on you once again because you were unable to get a single act together.

He will waste his time on me...?

After some time of Jungkook not replying or saying anything at all, the older male just sighed and shook his head.

„Never mind. Actually, Jungkook, I had another reason to come here today."

That snapped him out of his trance-like state. His head darted up hectically, and his shock widened eyes started at Junghyun as his heart clenched ever so slightly.

He... he didn't come to see me?

You are unimportant to him.

I am his brother... he doesn't have to come to check on me...

He is forced to talk to you because he needs to be here.

I am not the reason for his visit...

„I need to talk to Namjoon, it's urgent."

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Ok, so what do you guys think so far?

Anything you'd want to happen?

Anything you'd like to criticize?

Anything you'd have done differently?

And how are you feeling?

Please talk to me if you feel like talking.

Btw, sorry for the late update. RL hasn't been going well recently. I think with every passing day, I'm just getting more stressed and irritated ㅠㅠ. But I love writing, it's the only way for me to calm down and express myself :) (so don't tell me to stay away, ima come back anyway ㅇ-ㅇ) I always stop writing for a while whenever I don't know how to phrase something because, if I force the words to spill out without being motivated, this wouldn't end very well. I would be unsatisfied and unhappy, and so would you too. That's also a reason why I took so long. I didn't want to serve you guys a half-assed and half-hearted chapter. I wouldn't want to do this to my own baby and you guys ㅠㅠ

So, what do you think will happen now? Do you think Junghyun is gonna make everything worse? Or will he temporarily make Kook feel better? I'm genuinely curious of what you guys are thinking ㅇㅁㅇ

And btw

W T F iS tHiS?! ThErE iS nO sUiCiDe yEt

Istg, Wattpad is bugging 24/7.

And thank you HumanBean5 for helping me dm with the last few lines~

I might or might now have spoiled a lil bit to her.... but well, y'all can't blame me. I thought the ending of this was clear...dOnT u dARe sPiLl oR iMa bReAk tHe mUtUaL >:( (jk, I wouldn't do that)

Till next chapter!

Love, Ahlpa ♥