Poetic Disturbances.

不要な

I hate how im not loving
Instead im faking love
Or it is love what im feeling
Or is it a desperate attempt of companionship
I was never shown what love ever was -
Since a younging my mother has been fighting to love herself-
How can you express genuine love when you cant even love you-
Lately i've been lacking Love
But not the feeling of Hate-
A feeling that blinds you over the aspect of love
And every aspect of Faith
I cant even close my eyes without thoughts
Flowing my brain
At times i understand -
Noone will be able to understand me
But i at times wish someone would make an effort to-
I lack love
Like I lack friends
Who care about me and my wellbeing
Who care for my sudden outburst of solitude
But at the end on the day
Its the end of the day
You are nothing more
You are nothing less
Believe me when i say love cannot be
Found
Earned
Or distributed
Nor can you count on someone to show you love
But i do wish you may find it within
Nothing is ever powerful than self love
Found beneath all the darkness in your heart.