" I'm kinda into it " (YOONMIN)

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"Ahhhn, J-Jimin-ah", Mia writhed under me as she moaned and grabbed onto my shoulders. Nails digging into my skin. I was roughly thrusting into her small figure while holding onto to the sheets. The room was filled with our voices and skin slapping. She pulled her head back as she moaned exposing her pale neck filled with dark bruises.

I slowly crept my hands over her sweaty neck. "Hah, Jimin w-what are you doin'?", she asked with a hint of fear as my hands wrapped around her skinny throat. "So fucking sexy", I gasped out full of lust for this goddamn beautiful girl. She would look nice tied up in my ropes. A choker with a leash. A blindfold. Ice. Whip marks. My mind was filled with all the things I wanted to do to her. We're gonna have fun.

I feel full ecstasy...

"J-J-JIMIN G-Get your hands off me!", Mia suddenly screeched. I quickly let her go and realized I had squeezed her neck too hard and left red markings on her neck. She was gasping for air. I've also realized I came in her and she doesn't like it when I do that. "You've been trying strange things on me lately", she said frustrated. "Are you some sort of freak?" "I'm so sorry, babe", I quickly apologized. "Ugh, get off me!", Mia shoved me off her and sat up. "You came inside and look what a mess you did on me! I have so many fucking bruises thanks to you! Where are there tissues?"

She began barging into the drawer next to my bed. Wait. "Baby, I'll get it for-" As she was throwing stuff on the floor she pulled out the metal handcuffs and ropes. There was more. And she didn't stop. I grabbed her wrist before she found my other toys. "What the fuck?", she gasped holding my light pink glass dildo and hot pink butt plug. "Where you planning on using things like this on me?", she asked with a strange tone in her voice. She picked up my ropes. "What do you even do- Jimin, you can't possibly want to t-tie me up"

I've never felt so exposed and humiliated.

"You're disgusting. You're some sort of fucked up sadist", she threw the ropes at me. "And to think I had the sweetest most considerate boyfriend. You're just selfish!"

I kept silent. I didn't know what to say to keep my love from hating me. I truly am a selfish pervert anyways.

Mia sighed. "I really love you I guess, but I'm not into this", she said digging her face into her palms. "Sorry, Jimin. I gotta go... and think"
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It's been strange being forgotten by my girlfriend of six months. In that small time she made it seem like an eternity of bliss. I was truly in love. Why did I have to be this disgusting thing? We could've been happy if I just stuck to the average sex.

It was kinda boring. Just going in and out the same hole. In the same position. I know there's more to sex.

She just felt like my everything. She made me forget. Made me happy.

Was it worth it. Losing her?

For my selfish desires?
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I still see her at the university since we both major in art. It's been awkward but my friend, Jungkook, has been hanging out with me more often during class after I spilled to him. Not the whole story of course. Just said I had a fight with Mia.

I began getting closer to him and my other friends I've forgotten about due to Mia wanting to spend every second together.

And I was infatuated by her.
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I've been awfully depressed. I could be compared to a deflated balloon.

I was laying face up on my bed with a cigarette in my hand. I could hear music faintly playing in the background. It was some punk rock song I couldn't put my finger on but it didn't matter much because I was busy daydreaming about her.

Ding!
Ding!

My phone.

I sighed as I got up to reach for it on my nightstand. It was two messages from Jungkook :

Jungkook
r u woke?
Read 12:03
Jungkook
Im gonna hang with the guys at the party and they wanted to know if u were going thy rly like u :)
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Me
Idk if I can :/
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Jungkook
Come onnn stop getting all sad for tht bitch and come maybe you'll meet a better hottie ;)
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Jungkook
Jkjk just come to fuck around like we always did before that girl came in and took u away :,(
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Jungkook
Also I heard Yoongi is coming back from Seoul to stay for the holidays and ik u both were tight in high school
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Me
Yoongi? We haven't talked in forever
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Me
I'm just going for the free booze
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Jungkook
Yay :)
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I put out my cigarette
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Yoongi...

I haven't seen him since a week after graduation. We were both bitter at our last encounter before he left. I was upset that he didn't chose a different university and set off ur plans. Besides that he was disappointed about my relationship with Mia and talked trash about her ever since I told him I was talking to her.

I was blocked. So I blocked him from my life. completely.

I miss him.

And I soon found out why and that she really was what Yoongi said she was
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I readied myself for the party and pulled on an oversized white tee along with black skinny jeans. I slipped on a pair of maroon high top vans. I fixed up my dark hair a bit but it was still a messy bird's nest on top of my head. I looked at my appearance in the full body mirror hung on the door. Eh. Good enough.

Honestly, as much as I hate to admit it, I was forced to go as soon as Yoongi came into the picture. I have to make things clear between us.
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