𝙟𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙡 [ completed ]

2.4

its been a while since i wrote in here

i had to visit a therapist weekly

and slowly i was beginning to feel fine again

i was in a coma for a month, my dad told me

i scared him

and you

and i scared myself to

all i know is i never want to do it again

i didn't want to be scared anymore

most of my first two months out of the hospital i was on a lot of pills

i didn't like the pills because they made me not feel

i didn't like the pills because they made me forget about loving you

i couldn't

i wanted to but i couldn't

i spent days in my bed, and you were next to me

and i couldn't even look at you

i'd fade in and out of reality and i didn't know if you grabbing my hand and squeezing it was just a dream or if it was real

but the doctors finally said i didn't have to take them anymore

i finally felt like i was on the right path again

i finally felt again

every touch, every kiss with you was real

i even told you i loved you

i could finally tell you that

i could be happy with you

and i didn't feel scared

at all