𝙟𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙡 [ completed ]

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i looked down at the water in the bathtub, tracing circles across the surface

i felt tears falling down my face falling into the water, creating little waves

i wasn't even crying, it was just tears as a coping mechanism

they just spilled out the corners of my eyes, the only thing my body knew how to do at a time like this

i texted you a quick text just before i slipped in here, just a simple sorry, and i love you, goodbye

i wonder if i can actually do it

just slip under the surface and fade away

i take a short breath before sinking underneath

closing my eyes i just listen to the silence of the water

i listen to the sound of my heart beating against my chest desperately fighting for air

i feel it thumbing against my rib cage, my lungs hurting and my legs becoming numb

i feel the last bits of adrenaline rush trough my veins, fighting for life

but i stay under the water

soon the pain would end i tell myself

soon i'll be at peace again

soon i won't feel again

soon i'll be gone