A/N: Hello, my beautiful flowers. Here is a new idea where I write out some of the thoughts I had throughout the day. I had a rough night and I want to share how I feel and this is probably the best way I can do that without being completely self-conscience. Hope this doesn't bring you down too much.
You don't fucking care.
Still thinking about that party and how I always leave. I know no other way.
My thoughts are kinda bipolar even though I'm not.
I don't want others' normal, and I don't want mine either.
Always sorry for the way I act. Always apologizing for the wrong thing.
Always trying to focus but that's something I can never be.
Want to take a walk but it's late. Too many stranger's tales to caution to.
You don't fucking care that my head hurts.
Want to know where you're at. So many cars outside your parent's house but your's is nowhere to be found.
Too scared to learn the truth.
I'm filled with poison and it's stirring.
I'm filled with a white hot heat, so maybe I'm not empty after all.
I tell you how I feel but then you turn it all around. I try and spell things out but you only make out every other word.
I don't want to say it's your fault. It isn't your fault. It isn't your fault but it might be. It might be but you don't know how to handle that.
I'll listen to the sounds as I drift. I'll dream about things. Maybe even about you.
P.s I wrote out my thoughts last night and am publishing it the next day aka today, June 24th. And I would like to clarify that these thoughts are all over the place and not about just one thing but many.
Anyway, have a better day, loves.
- Curly Haired Introvert
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