second chance/ Katy Perry and Orlando bloom

chapter forty one

A soft hand stroking my cheek.

A blanket wrapped around me.

A pillow underneath my head.

And your eyes looking at me.

''Hi.''

Was the only thing I could bring out.

I couldn't stop my mouth from forming a smile.

''Hi.''

You said back.

Your British accent immediately got me.

''What are you doing here?

What about Flynn?''

''I felt like you needed me more.

Flynn could stay the weekend at Miranda.

I only gotta go to that new Lego movie in the theatres next week.''

I laughed and pushed myself up a little bit.

''How's Flynn doing actually?

How old is he now..8?''

''Yes, he's 8.

He's doing great.

I'm so proud of him and love him so much.''

It hurt me.

And I know that's terrible.

Of course, you're proud of your son and you should be.

But it just reminds me of why we broke up.

You will always pick Flynn over me and that will never change.

Once again Flynn is your son.

There's nothing more important than your own children.

But I wish there was a world where we both could be important to you.

Then it hit me.

You're here now.

For me.

You left your son with his mother to be here with me.

That's so kind.

Maybe.

Maybe you changed.

His story.

You smiled.

An honest smile.

''Thank you.''

Were the only two words you said to break the silence.

You gave me a hug and afterward curled yourself up against me.

I kissed your head and put my arms around you.

I hold you tight.

God, what did I miss this.

You're so soft.

So vulnerable.

So in need of someone to love you.

To see right through you.

I always used to be that one.

And I am still that same person.

And I will always be that person.

I love you so much.

After a while your breathing got regular and I noted you fell asleep.

I wanted to say all the things I was thinking about,

But I couldn't.

I didn't know about your point of the view of the situation.

I followed the shapes of your face with my finger,

starting at your nose,

going down underneath your eye,

to your ear,

playing a little with your earlobe,

stroking your cheekbone

and then kissing your lips.

It didn't feel wrong at all.

You are just so beautiful.

It felt so meant to be.

I should have never ever left you.

I was so extremely selfish and mean.

''Did you just kiss me, or did I dream that?'' 

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A/N: 5/24, 5/26 & 5/27 I WENT TO WITNESS THE TOUR IN ANTWERP AND AMSTERDAM! THESE WERE THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE! SHE POINTED AT ME AND WE CROSSED EYES A COUPLE OF TIMES! IM NEVER GETTING OVER THESE DAYS! X LOTTE