If only

Part 11

Regans pov
Beca sent Chloe down to get some pyjamas of me last night and I couldn't help my self so I gave Chloe a really tight tanks top and some really short shorts because I knew beca and her were close almost to close so I decided to help them make a move without them
Realising. That night my dad told me to go and tell them that it was time fore bed but when I opened the door I found Chloe straddling beca I retracted my head but left the door open a-bit so I could hear and I heard beca talking to Chloe about how she wanted to build there relation ship because she's known her for about 5 days. I was shocked to say the most because beca had a reputation of getting on boys but then leaving them for another, so I was in shock when she said she wanted to build there relation ship

Chloe's  pov
I woke up with my face berries in someone's neck and my hand just underneath someone's waist band I peel open my eyes and I'm met with brown locked sprawled over the pillows and my face I soon realise that I'm not in my room and in fact in beca's room I slowly retract my hand from her waist band only to have her stir and place it back. So I decided to check my phone with my free hand I noticed it was only 2:16 in the morning so I decided to go back to sleep.

I woke up a while later to a banging headache and my hand still down beca's waistband I start to rub my thumb in circles but I feel beca place her hand on top of mine and slowly takes my hand away, after about five minutes she turns over onto her back and grabs my hand and places it on her stomach again and brings her knees up so that my hand is in between her knees and her stomach and groans with pain."morning" I startled her a little bit " oh I'm sorry I didn't realise you were up, do you Umm want you hand back ?" I peel open my eyes " it's ok if you need it then you can have it"I say with a smirk

After about an hour of sitting watching the tv that beca had put on I need the toilet so I get up and retract my hand away because getting out of the bed and letting the cold breeze hit my bear legs. I walk over to the bath room before closing and locking the door behind me I look at myself in the mirror before feeling the urge to throw up so I quickly lean down and put my head towards the toilet bowl and start to throw up once I think I've stopped I lift my head out of the toilet and sit on top of the toilet " shit" I put my head in my hands. There was a knock at the bathroom door " hey Chlo you ok " I heard a worried beca outside " umm Yh I'm fine " I walk over to the bathroom door and open it " Umm where do you keep tampons and stuff ?" "Umm in the second shelf in that cupboard" she point to a cupboard that I could barely reach " Umm how do you get in there that seems awfully high" she nods " it is but regan usually gets them down for me in the mornings, so you want me to go and get her?" I nod

Beca returns with regan and she walks past me and reaches into the cupboard and gets down the 2 boxes of tampons " hey beca we have two different types which ones would you like " regan turned to beca, but beca stays silent "Umm actually there Umm for me" she looks at beca and beca nods and then regan turned to me " well then Chloe which ones would you like ?" I pick up the box in her left hand and thank her

After I'm done I come out of the bathroom after throwing up some more " hey are you sure your ok I heard you throw up a couple of times" I nod " Yh it happens when I'm on my period but you misses made me start 3 days earlier" I say while pointing my finger at beca trying not to laugh " well I'm sorry but I didn't know I was a period queen and could make you come on when ever I want you to " she says with sarcasm and a smirk. We spend the rest of the weekend binge watching shows and eating insane amounts of junk food that Jesse brought us once he found out that Mother Nature has struck.

Chloe's pov
It's been almost 4 months now and me and beca are really close we're always with one another and we practically do everything together but I still feel the same way for her as I did almost 4 months ago, we flirt like all the time Jesse, regan, Emily , benjy and Aubrey all think we would be a really good couple.We don't really think we would and that's why we keep it as friends with benefits. (When I say we I mean beca)Yes I'm having friends with benefits with my best friend who just so happened to be the girl I think I'm falling in love with

" hey you busy tonight" beca's asks with a smirk "hmmm besides fucking you nah not really" she smirks and we head to class. After class I'm waiting at the lunch table we always sit at, beca turns up and minutes later so does Jesse once we're all here we head out back for a smoke.

" so Chloe tell me when you started smoking?" One of the boys who hangs around with us asked ,I finish my toke before answering " umm about 2 years ago but I just had a break from it, what about you" he exhales " Umm around the same time" I look over to beca who doesn't look very happy so I go and sit next to her " hey what's up sexy" I say and earn a few comments from the rest of the group and I flip them off ( learnt that from beca) " oh nothing just thinking " I exhale the smoke before answering " about what" she shakes her head " oh come on you know you can tell me anything " she nod " I know but I just i don't know, I guess I'm getting feelings for someone and I just don't know how I feel about it" a lump rises in my throat causing me to cough " oh ok " it broke me that the girl I'm falling in love with doesn't even like me back she just sees me as her fuck buddy " I'm going inside bye guys " I announce to the groups and leave. Once I turn the corner I start to tear up but I don't want anyone to see me like this so I run to the nearest bathroom and lock myself in there and start to cry

" hey are you ok " I hear from the other side of the stool door, I recognise that voice "Aubrey?" " Chloe?" I unlock the door and see her standing there completely shocked and I tilt my head to look past her in the mirror and see that I have mascara run in all down my face and I had red and puffy eyes " what did she do, what did beca do !" She's raised her voice " nothing it wasn't beca, well it is but she hasn't down anything" since I've known beca and regan I've gotten quite close with some of there friends like me and Aubrey for example I can talk to her about anything " well what do you mean " I sigh " I think I like beca" she tilted her head " I know it may seem like we all hate her at times but we like her to Chloe so what's different if you like her" I shake my head " you don't get it I, i.. I think I'm falling in love... with beca" I let a few more sobs come out and Aubrey pulls me in for a hug and lets me cry into her arms " hey, hey, hey it's ok I'm sure she feels the same way" she pulled away and looked her in the eyes the best I could do with my red eyes " no she doesn't she said she had feeling for someone else " I start to cry again " did she say who " I shake my head and my phone starts to ring I look at the caller id and it's beca I decline t and put it back in my pocket and continue to cry " hey why don't we take you home " I nod and come out of the bathroom stool and fix my make up in the mirror. Aubrey took me home and I've been declining beca's calls and not replying her texts all day not wanting to talk to her or see her face because it would break me