Only You (Sequel to Why Try)

Chapter twenty four

"I'll put that there and that there" I said to myself as I put the boys Easter eggs on the side. I've decorated it all with chocolate eggs and baskets, they will love this.

I'm absolutely in love with our new home, I'm never moving again. Moving from our old house to this one was stressful as hell, we had the boys running around knocking things over and smashing a few things, in the end Pattie and Ray picked them up and took them out for some dinner.

Everyone was so helpful they came over and helped up pack and take boxes over to this house and I'm so grateful for them. Other than moving, my life has been full of drama once again. Over the past month or so I have felt really down and my friends have noticed and so has Justin. The thing is, I've been on instagram and I've been reading through some comments that were left on my posts and some really broke my heart to the point I was sat in bed crying.

I've read comments that have said I've changed or I have changed recently which isn't true at all. I have been taking some time to spend with my family and not use my phone as much because with tour coming up I've been having e-mails coming in and texts and everything the boys want to play a game I've had my phone in my hand and I hated it so I just took some time away from social media.

People have also said that me and Jade are spending too much time together?. Our kids are siblings and they see each other nearly everyday so obviously me and Jade are going to be together and I've got hated for it, I just don't get it. The whole situation really got to me because the last thing I want is for my own fans to think I've changed, I'm still me and that's never gonna change.

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"Wolf be careful! Don't jump just sit down and save yourself an injury!" I shouted up to him, he was at the top of the inflatable slide with Harper and Bans. Before going up there he said "I'm gonna jump from the top and go all the way to the bottom".
I mean c'mon, it's Easter I don't want to spend the rest of my day in hospital waiting for Wolf to have a arm or leg plastered up.

I continued to watch him and in the end he sat down at the top and put hands out so the girls could hold onto him, my sweet boy.
They all laughed as they slid down and then stood up and headed back to the steps for another go.

"Are you excited for tour Bee?" Kendall asked me as she took the lid off of Livvy's bottle and put it in her mouth.

"So excited! Too see the fans, feel the love and have an amazing time. Today is my only day off because in the morning I'm going straight to Ellen for an interview and then after that I'm going to rehearsals and up to the fifth I'll be at rehearsals so it's gonna be hectic but it's exciting".

We are all in mine and Justin's new backyard having the best Easter. To say we have all gone over the top is an overstatement, every direction you look there's something going on wether its face painting, Easter egg hunting, animals or food, it's all here.

"I haven't seen Ellen in so long! Is it your first interview with her?"

"Yeah, I'm so excited but nervous as hell. I'm obsessed with her tho, I hope she likes me".

"Babe, you'll be fine, trust me. I've been on a few times and had the best time, you'll love it!"

I gave Kendall a warm smile as she carried on feeding Livvy.
"I'll let you carry on, I'm gonna go speak to some guests"
"Okay, see you later love". I stood up and walked past Kendall, touching her shoulder on the way. I raised my hand to shield my eyes from the beaming sun, the sound of children laughing filling my ears. Justin is with most of the kids on top of the inflatable slide, I could hear their laughter and loud voices as I walked up the garden smiling and waving at different friends.

"Hey Ari!" I heard my name being called. I looked to my right to see Kylie, Travis and baby Stormi.
"Hey guys, thankyou for coming. I'm glad you could make it, how long has it been?"
"Thankyou for the invite and girllll it's been too long. The last time I saw you was just after I had Stormi!"
I gave Kylie and Travis a hug and as all sat down.
"Oh my goodness, look at this cutie!! She's so big now, can I?" I asked as I put my hands out.
Kylie nodded her head and I took Stormi from her hands and held her in my arms.
"Hi Stormi baby! Oh you're so beautiful", she gave me a bug smile.
"How are you guys finding parent hood?" I asked as I stared down and Stormi.
"You know Kylie has just got to it straight away, she's amazing".
"Yeah but you're good too especially with the night feeds"
"The next few weeks are going to be so hard without my boys" as I said that I felt my heart start to hurt a little, my babies.
"Are they not going with you this time?" Kylie asked with a concerned tone in her voice.
"No not this time, for my first tour they were a lot younger so it was easier but now they've told me what they want to do and I can't force them. Tiana is bringing Harper with us for a while, I mean the boys will come out and see me just not as often as the last time. Justin and Pattie have a lot of things planned so they'll have a lot of fun".
"Yeah but I'd be the same but it will be nice for you though to just to go out and not worry about them, rushing or paps".
I stared down at Stormi again and she looked up at me with her big brown eyes.
"She's your double Ky".
I lent down and gave a soft kiss on her head.