• Bts Angst •

「 jimin 」

I really hate the guy who stopped me from jumping of a bridge last year

I couldnt see the man's face

He was wearing a black jacket with a hoodie on and some shades...

It was night that time...so it was pretty weird that he was wearing shades but...i can clearly see his lips...those pink plumpy lips...i guess he is handsome but i dont know yet

I want to meet that man though...but i cant...there are hundreds of people here in seoul and its already planned that im gonna kill myself tomorrow so...

I remebered how he held me closly to him before i can even jump...

FLASHBACK
I was crying nonstop...i was ready to die...im always ready

I just cant..it hurts...

Life is so cruel...

I cant take it anymore...

I just want to be free...i just want a peaceful life yet i got the opposite

Im really an unlucky girl...

I hate my life...

I hate myself...

Everyone says im ugly...they hate me...i only have myfriend cindy...

Everyone wants me to die...

So im giving them want they want...

I shut my eyes as my tears continued to fall

But suddenly before i could jump someone suddenly hugged me from the back and pulled me close

And i heard the person say "dont..."

I was being pulled away from the bridge

"Y-Yah!"i shouted turning to the person...but he was all covered up...i can only see his lips

"WHO THE FU--"i was cutted off when suddenly he said something

"Dont kill your self just because people said mean things..."i looked down and before i could ask his name he was gone...

END OF THE FLASHBACK
He doesnt know my past...i wasnt gonna kill myself just because of mean people

The reason im gonna kill myself...

Is because things had turned upside down...yes its also they said mean things...its because they hurt me...not emotionally...but physically

I was being bullied and abused at school and at my house real bad...

In my school...other students are nice to me...but the bullies..they are just too much...i havent done anything wrong to them...

At home...

I was being abused...always..

Slapping me,kicking me,punching me...but only mom does that...while dad he protects me from her

My mom is a monster...

I was always compared to my 'brother' namjoon...

He was the opposite of me...he was the perfect son...he is smart,handsome,tall,gentleman,kind,sweet,and stuff...

While me...im dumb,im short,im a rebel,im not sweet cuz im cold asf but when im with cindy im soft asf and stuff like that

I hate people...and i hate myself...