Mark's POV
"Please.... No!" Levi screamed from her room. I knew she was having another nightmare. I ran down the stairs and into her room. She was crying into her pillow still asleep.
I grabbed her and held her in my arms. Every night, it was the same thing.
"Stop... No.... Stop!" She cried in her sleep. I felt her heart was racing. I decided to wake her up.
"Y/N!" I shook her a little.
"Wake up it's just a dream. Wake up." I shook her a bit then she woke up screaming. She only felt arms around her and started to fight me.
"Y/N its Mark." I said holding her hands in front of her. She calmed down and looked at me. As soon as she realized it was me, she broke down sobbing.
It's like this every night. Ever since she got out of the hospital she has been a mess. I know it's not her fault. She was traumatized by the experience. Hell so was Jungkook. I heard he hasn't been sleeping either.
I don't know what to do. How can I help her?
"I'm sorry Markie, I don't mean to wake you. Go back to sleep. I'll be just fine, I promise." She wiped her tears as if nothing ever happened.
"Cheesy, I'm not going anywhere. I'll stay with you until you sleep or just to keep you company." I spoke from my heart but she got a sour look.
"I'm fine, go." She looked defensive. She stood up. She picked out some clean clothes then went to shower.
I decided to make her some tea and toast. She needs to eat something. I can tell she has been ignoring her own rules of health. She ignores her lack of sleep. And refuses to eat a healthy amount of food most days. Honestly I'm worried about her constantly.
Your POV
I sat at the bottom of my shower. Nothing was okay. I am not fine. I just wish I could be asleep an appropriate amount of time nowadays. Not my such luck. I can barely get two hours at a time. I hope Jungkook is feeling better at least. I mean I did lie to him about my own dreams and if I am having or not having them. But it should have given him the courage to face his fears. Mine are a wee bit more complicated. Okay a lot more. Each dream is different but horrible. And I wake up feeling like I just escaped from being held captive.
I looked over my body sick. I let this happen to me. I deserve every disgusting mark on me. I knew better. I had been warned. They told me I'd die. And honestly what would have been worse death or this hell? I know I have no reason to feel this way but I do. I feel like I'm trapped in my own personal hell. And everyday I have to watch everything like it was a movie. Everyday I have to pretend to be okay. I am forced to look at myself and be reminded of my weaknesses everyday. And I don't know how much I can take of it. I just wish I was back in the hospital in the coma. Cause for some fucking reason I was not having these nightmares!!
I heard a knock on the bathroom door, I knew it was Markie.
"Yah?!" I yelled at the door cracked slightly.
"Get out Cheesy. You've been in here too long, you'll raise the water bill too high." He reasoned.
"Yah! Fine I'll get out, pabo." I barked playfully and he left.
I got dressed not looking at me once. I didn't want to see myself. I couldn't stand it, it hurts.
***Time Skip***
"Wae? A vacation?" Me and Mark asked Jaebum in confusion. I really don't understand, we just started working again. Why on Earth would we start by a vacation?
"Yes, JYP-nim stated he really likes Levi Noona's work, but you haven't been at your best lately. He is only worried about your health. He believes a nice small vacation would do us all some good." Jaebum explained making me feel bad. I was only derailing their own careers by being here. Although the JJProject already debuted last year so, only 5 need to be fully trained. Even then BB and Jackson, were trained as young children in music and profromance. Really only Yugyeom and Youngjae have no real training in anything before JYP.
"Alright, I mean who wouldn't love a vacation?" Jackson lightened the mood sending the youngest three into a spiral of excitement. He really knew how to get the party started didn't he? Though Jinyoung knew it was my fault that they would have to once again delay their training. He wasn't exactly happy about the idea.
BTS POV
"So we are gonna get another break?" Namjoon asked his manager again. He didn't quiet understand why they needed a break. But when their manager glanced at Jungkook before quickly returning to Namjoon's eyesight. Namjoon immediately understood. Jungkook was barely a child and under so much stress and dealing with a quiet traumatic experience. He needed time to relax before they finished with the album.
"Bang insisted on it, don't argue Namjoon. Just pack you will be gone four days." He explained before leaving.
