Serendipity - Finding something good, without looking for it.
After waking up from an accident, Katy finds herself looking at the world in a different light. With diagnosed Post Traumatic Amnesia, Katy sets out on a mission, along with some trusted...
"But it is though. Isn't it? You and Billy were close. So were you and Aaron.. I'm just some home-wrecker."
"Don't say that." I answer giving her a serious look.
"But I am, I've broken the crew up. Aaron is on Team Billy, Jay is always with Billy. How long before Dakota takes their side?"
"I don't care, I'd rather be on my own in the crew than lose you Katy. You know that. Right?"
She looks away, I watch as she closes her eyes. "Why does it feel like the world is dragging me down?" She opens them again.
"What if what the doctor said was true? That I have this... Survivors guilt? You're an empath, you'll feel bad too."
"I'm prepared." I tell her honestly.
"I wish I was. God I'm such a mess. Why do you bother?"
"Because I care too much not to. Don't ever feel like you can't talk about the crash, not to me. I think talking will help, I know you're doing your therapy and it makes you tired.. But if you have a moment, then I want to know. I need to know what's going on inside your head because if it's self loathing. Then I need to be there to stamp it out and fill it with self love."
She smiles gently.
"Got it?" I ask wiping a stray tear from her cheek.
She nods.
"Move in with me." I blurred out shocking us both.
I know she's heard it, I know she knows and she knows that I know that she knows. But Katy then comments about the TV show.
"Did you hear me?" I ask quietly.
"I did.. But I don't think you were ready for it." She looks over and takes my hand "I get it, you're worried. But a pity move in party won't help."
"I didn't do that out of pity." I reply "I've been wanting to ask you for a while.. But I uh-- I've been too nervous."
She looks over at me. "Nervous?"
I nod. "This whole relationship thing is scary and this is a big step, but it's one I want to take with you."
"You're serious?" She whispers in confusion.
"Of course. So? What do you say?"
"I- What about my apartment? You've just redecorated..."
"Who cares?"
"And when I get too much?"
"Impossible." I smile.
"And when you know I've got stacks of photos?"
"Then I'll add even more. I've got the room for everything. Are you committed, as I am to you?"
"Yes. Yes.. Yes I am. Oh my god. Yes! I'll move in with you! I- are you sure?" She asks.
"Positive."
She squeals and throws her arms around my neck pulling me into a tight hug.
"Then.. Welcome to the Bagans Household."
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"Zak...... Zak?"
"Hmm?" I mumble into the pillow.
"Are you still sure?"
I smile.
She had been asking me all night if I was positive about her moving in, but I had never been so sure of something in my entire life.
I wanted her at her best and I still wanted her at her worst. Katy needs stability, security and love. I can give her all that, I give her all that. So why not give her a home too?
Since asking, she hadn't mentioned Billy again, instead she had been on cloud cuckoo. Telling me how she plans on being the perfect house guest, I leave out the logistics of her not being a guest if she lives here. I just agree. She had been telling me how she plans on waiting on me, being there for me as much as I am for her. But she already is, she just doesn't realise it.
I lift my head off the pillow and pick up my phone, unlocking it, I type the words in my messages before handing her my phone.
I hear her gasp and suddenly I've grown a human out of the side my body when she cuddles in and slides the phone back into my view.
I take it and smile seeing her reply.
- I love you too.
I couldn't say the words, they get caught in my throat and I break into a sweat. But I could show her, and I could write it too her.
