Serendipity

Rage.

I shove the tray from my lap and get out of bed with the tissue of food in my hand leaving him in bed to complain about the now ruined breakfast.

I slam the bathroom door shut and lock it to make sure he can't get in before turning on the shower and throwing the food into the bin.

I'm angry.

Really angry.

He went behind my back! He didn't care about my feelings in this! Just as long as he got to go bareback! What if I didn't want to now?! What if I didn't want him anywhere near me?!

I gripped the basin and ground my teeth before building pressure in my body making my face go red before releasing it in a hope that my anger would drain but it just intensified. Glaring at my pale reflection, I wanted to tear the mirror off the wall, smash the shower until and destroy anything and everything that was in my way.

I wanted destruction, total destruction so that I could get rid of the anger that pumped in my veins.

"Katy?"

"Go away!" I snap.

"Open the door."

"No! Just... Just go! I don't want you here!"

"Well that's not happening." He answers.

I can hear the laugh in his voice and suddenly the anger hits it's top. Flying over to the door, I unlock it and yank it open.

"I said I want you gone! Now go!"

He laughs "Nope."

"GET OUT!"

"Is this because I booked you an appointment? I thought we pretty much agreed to it last night and you said yourself that you didn't want a child so-"

"No! I said the timing wasn't right! I want a child! I do! And maybe I wouldn't be ready and timing isn't ever going to be perfect but if I was? Then I would have kept that baby whether you stood beside me or not!"

"Calm down."

"DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN!" I yell up at him.

"Screaming at me isn't going to help." He sighs.

"WELL IT IS HELPING ME! DON'T LIKE IT?! THEN GO!"

"Katy..."

I push away from the door frame and stalk over to the shower to make sure the water is on hot and not warm like he leaves it every damn time!

"No! You know what?! Just get out! I don't want you here and right now I don't know if I want you!"

His eyes snap to me "You're fucking joking. Aren't you? Tell me this is some kind of wind up."

"Do you see me laughing?!"

"No! But it must be some kind of joke if you're willing to throw this, us away over some pregnancy scare!"

"IT'S NOT JUST THAT!"

"THEN WHAT?!" He shouts with anger filling his eyes.

"You didn't listen to me! You don't listen to me! I don't need another doctors appointment! I don't want to go to the doctors at all! I don't want more contraception! I want to be able to be trusted to take a tablet every day! I want you to step in and maybe take your own precautions too!"

"I don't like wearing them."

"Well you didn't like the idea of almost being a daddy either! So perhaps wear one and cut the idea out completely!"

"So what are you telling me? You want to end things because I don't wear a rubber or you want a child and I don't?!"

"I don't know!" I shout back feeling my skin begin to sweat.

"Well fucking decide! What's more important right now?! I want to be with you but you're going to make this difficult if you keep throwing this in my face!"

I blink widely noticing my vision has narrowed...

"I'm sorry I can't be everything you want! But I'm trying!"

"Zak.."

"But I thought we were okay! I thought me you and Gracie was all we needed!"

"Zak." I speak as my head gets light.

"But you want more and we aren't even fit enough to be parents!"

"Za-"

"WHAT?!" He bellows.

"I don't feel to go-"

My eyes roll back as my legs give out from under me. Then I'm in the darkness...