The Safe Haven

Chapter 1. The Ocean

Thomas pov

I was standing by the ocean, gazing at the water, trying to remember what Newt wrote in his letter.
"That one perfect moment", I laughed a sad laughter, it seems to be perfect here. Everyone in the safe haven is cheerful and happy, if you look around you can see the peacefulness in this place and the harmony but I couldn't think about that... how can they be so happy when we all lost so much? I always have wanted this perfect moment, but not alone. I wanted them to be here with me. My friends Chuck, Teresa , Alby , Newt...... I wanted to scream but I couldn't I just stood by the water, tears rolling down my cheeks. I remembered something and looked down at my hands, still holding the blue liquid. I looked down a little bit longer, it made me feel sick , so many people have died because everyone wanted this little thing. I didn't want to see it any longer, so I took one step back , raised my arm and.... as I was about to throw it, I got interrupted.
"Hey Greenie!"
I stopped in my tracks and turned around.
"What do you want?" I said a little bit harsh.
"Ohh ohhh calm down. I... I just wanted to talk "
"You're the last person one earth that I would like to talk to right now, Gally!"
"Please Thomas, I know that I made mistakes"
I didn't want to listen to him , so I shoved past him but he ran after me and held me by my wrist.
"Please Thomas... please... only 5 minutes", he begged and I saw the sad and broken look in his eyes.
I took a deep breath.
"Your time is running, speak up", I sad coldly.
Gally smiled and sat himself down, so I did the same .

We sat in silence.
Seems like Gally was thinking about what he could possibly say to me, I thought to myself but then he spoke up.
"I know I'm an asshole", he started and I scoffed, still fiddling with the little jar in my hand.
He continued, "I'm sorry... I really am and I wanted you to know that Newt was right".
My stomach twisted when he said his name.
"I was under the control of the virus, I would have never..... I ... would ... never .... Chuck", Gally started crying, right in front of me, all of this felt so wrong.
I remember it, Newt was holding me back, although I wanted to punsh Gally in his stupid face, he could calm me down... he was the only one who ever could.
Gally brought me back to reality by sobbing again. I put a hand on his shoulder and he started to cry even more.
"I know", I said.
He looked up and into my face.
"I know.. Newt remembered me..he was indeed right, in fact he was ever single time. I was so mad at you. I only saw Chucks murderer... but now I realize, that it wasn't you, they just used you, like all of us... I'm sorry"
Saying that was harder than I thought It would be. But it felt good. Because it's the truth.
"Y.. you...are.. forgiving ...me ?", he stumbled.
"We're in fucking paradise Gally, we did it! We saved so many people and you helped.. I'm just mad because.. ", I stopped myself.
"He isn't here ?" Gally cut in.
I looked him in the face, I knew exactly who he meant with "he" but I pretended not to know, instead of saying the truth I just responded,
"Chuck would like it here and the others would as well...", Gally smiled. I think he saw directly through me but he didn't say anything and I thanked him for that mentally.
He looked down at my hands,
"What you playing with? Shunkface", I laughed, "Shunkface? And there he is again, good old Gally!"
Gally joined my laughter.
"That, my friend, is the glorious cure", I said in a silly voice and laughed more.
But Gally stopped and stared at me, "Re..really?"
I looked at him with confusion written all over my face.

"Yeah, why? Teresa gave it to me. I was about to throw it away when you interrupted me so rudely"
Gallys face showed a strange hint of disbelief.
"Can, can I have it?", Gally asked all of a sudden.
"Why would you need it Gally?", I asked back.
I could give it to him, I didn't need it anymore and wanted to get rid of it anyways but I was interested in what Gally had to say.
"I need it because, ahhhhhh you know...". I looked him in the eyes raising an eyebrow.
"Because of what?". You could tell that Gally was thinking about an excuse and then he came up with something.
"Because that thing caused us so much trouble, it's a waste to throw it away. I would like to have it, so that I can remember".
I gazed at the water again.
"Why would you want to be reminded of so much trouble and pain?", I asked.
"It wasn't only trouble and pain, there were fun and peaceful moments. I can't remember my life before the maze, that's true but I remember the 3 years in there, those people in there weren't only my friends they were family and sometimes I'm afraid that I might forget, you know?
I know we were trapped in the maze but it wasn't always that bad, we laughed, danced and lived together! And maybe my life before the maze wasn't that good either... who knows?"