Speed of light

Feelings? 2

Riley's P.O.V

I'm writing a letter to Maya ,lately I've been confused about everything , a wave of mixed emotions rushes through my body but it isn't Lucas who makes me feel that way.

The time Lucas is away will help me find out if I still have feelings for him. I need to start thinking about it he deserves to know the truth and move on with his life , I don't want to play with his emotions so the sooner the better.

I wish Maya was here to help me out with all of this mess

When did I start feeling this way?

Why do I feel like this?

But now considering it should I really follow my heart ? Everyone says that I have everything to be happy
Great boyfriend
Good friends
Nice education
Amazing family

The thing is I'm not really happy and I feel selfish

People started talking about how good my future seems:

Get married to Lucas Friar , he'll be a veterinarian, having a good salary, buy a house, have children....Blah Blah

But that life is boring, I don't want to be stereotype "Perfect" family . I don't want to PRETEND to be happy I want to BE happy.

Should I take a risk? Maybe the person I'm starting to like doesn't like me back.. Wait..do I like as in romantically ?

I just feel different and confused

Maya always helps me, but she hasn't responded my texts or calls, I miss her so much but I guess she's been with Josh he just left for college ..I feel a little jealous about them being together , she's my best friend and I want her all the time with me..But again I don't want to be selfish ( cough cough - but I am)

I'll talk to mom and dad Oh! I just know the right person AUGGIE!

I thought he was too little to get this kinda stuff but when we talked at the frozen yogurt my mind changed

"Auggie!" I yell

He comes in a blink

"Need help with your love life?" He smirks

"I never thought I'd ask my little brother for help about that but, yeah"

"Okay...and I thought I never say this but BAY WINDOW ,BAY WINDOW RIGHT NOW!"