The Idiocy of Life (GirlxGirl)

5. Leaving Now

Hey guys! So here is the next chapter! Btw...this is the last reposted chapter so *drumroll please* all of you who have read through this book when it is first out...won't have to read anymore repeat-ish after this chapter...(I think.)

Background: "Let's Go"

I expected her to be defiant. Or yell at me. Or fight me. Or leave me.

But instead, her face grew calm.

She gently put her utensils and slowly looked up at me.

"Whatever you say, my lady" she mocked an English tone. She pushed her plate away and got up, her fishnet leggins nabbing onto the corner of the table.

I just stood there, not expecting her subtleness.

"What? I thought all Harvard students were Shakespeare geeks?" she said with her smirk.

While I was pissed, tired, and wanting everything to be over, a small smile grew on my face.

The smile grew wider as the quietest; muffled noise came from my shivering lips.

Something shimmered in her eyes, "You have a pretty smile."

And for a moment...a single second...I felt that maybe someone cares. Someone likes seeing my smile. Maybe I could smile more. I could smile myself into a new life.

New life?

Who was kidding? A new life? That is impossible. Because everything is too deep that nothing can ever get better.

My smile faded into a frown.

This caused Ruby to furrow her eyebrows.

But I had that lingering image of that shimmer in her blue, tired eyes. It was something special.

"I heard a quote," she said with a soft voice. "Use your smile to change the world, don't let the world change your smile."

There was a flicker.

I couldn't tell what or where.

But that quote gave me hope.

Well, it would have given me hope three months ago when I smiled.

And he thought that smile gave him the right to do what he did.

I fell silent. Mute. In denial.

I was trying my best to not think about him tonight.

He did not deserve to be on my dying mind.

I wish I were in his mind. Showing him how it felt to be teased and assaulted. Show him the shame I felt. And how it is his fault.

Ruby snickered, "I know, the quote is bullcrap."

I swallowed hard, shoving past her and walking out the door.

The air bit me instantly. It choked me with the cold brutality of such a cold night. It tensed my muscles until moving felt impossible.

That's probably how I will feel as I fall.

As if moving was impossible.

As if nothing was possible.

Ruby kicked a pebble; I watched with sorrow as it skipped off the curb and into the severely cracked street.

"I'm glad we got that for free," she said taking a gulp from the vodka bottle that she must have snuck out. "I don't have any money."

I realized. Neither did I.

I should find humor in the break we got. But I simply nodded, "Neither do I."

My eyes were trained on the ground, hoping it would open and swallow me up.

But I finally looked up in hope to see a bus stop.

And indeed there was.

A man was slouched over. He had a bottle of scotch beside him, and a gun tucked in his lap.

He looked anything but safe.

But I was tired of dragging Ruby around.

"Bus stop....go," I pointed at the rotting station, trying to avert my eyes from the place I was going to send Ruby.

"He doesn't look safe," she said, tilting her head.

I glanced her over.

"You both have bottles of brain cell killers; you'll share," I sneered.

I heard her sigh for dramatic effect as she took a step across the roadway.

For some reason, something swerved in side me. Something felt painful. But not the hateful pain, the loss pain.

The man caught sight of us. He sneered, his teeth agap. He held up both his hands in a drunken matter and made a symbol that I remembered seeing men at a bar make.

It was not a good symbol, nor did it reassure me he was a decent man.

And then I noticed the luminous sign that said "No bus. Out of service until 2:345 PM."

Great. Just great. She'll be left alone with a pervert for a little less than 12 hours.

I suddenly heard a loud, chugging sound in the far distance. It was a train.

"Ruby," I called her between my teeth, knowing I was going to regret this new delay. "Come back. There must be a train around here somewhere."

While I only saw her back, her ears rose ever so slightly, indicating a smile.

With a pep in her step, she strutted back toward me.

I was expecting a thank you or something like that.

Instead, she shoved past me. Her shoulder hit mine, causing me to wince.

"Ow," I exclaimed.

"You have to toughen up, girly. Especially if you want to hang with me."

There was a confident teasing in her voice.

But it wasn't a cruel teasing; it was one that was luring me in.

Making me feel as if she didn't completely hate me.

Making me feel light hearted.

Making me feel as if I have a friend.

Slightly smiling, I followed her to the pickup truck.

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