Alone with You || Jeon Jungkook

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"Is mom and dad here?" I asked.

"No, I haven't called them. You've only been out for two hours. I planned to call them if you haven't woken up sooner."

"Okay. I think that's better. I don't really want them to worry too much. Can we go home?"

"Yeah."

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Just like the last time, Jungkook assists me to the house again.

I just wonder, am I sick? Do I have a disease I'm not even aware of? And why does it happen only now? Now that I'm only with him.

He lets me sit at the living room and runs to the kitchen to get me a glass of water. In a few, he comes back and lets me drink it. He sits beside me, gently caressing my back.

I don't feel like talking. I silently ponder on why this is happening.

First, it was when he said something disturbing, missing the ugly me to come back to him.

Second, when I called him something unnecessary, Kookie-ah.

"Kookie-ah..." I whispered.

I feel his hand stiffen for a moment then he said, "Stop calling me that. I don't want you to call me that right now."

"Why? Does it mean anything? I don't even know why I called you that myself."

He side hugs me tightly, nuzzling his face on my hair. "Don't think about it anymore."

His touch feels so delicate, he's holding me so tenderly like I'm gonna fade away.

"Why are you like this? Am I missing out on something? We've only known each other for a month right? Why are you acting so attached to me when you don't even know me?"

I'm so confused about it that I really want to have answers, I continue asking, "Have we met before? Did we have a past that I might just have forgotten? Did I leave you behind? Tell me, I can't remember. Tell me so I would know."

He embraces me even harder saying, "Just stop now. Please stop asking questions."

"No, I want some answers right now. I'm so confused I don't even know what's real anymore. Please tell me."

He loosens his clasp, faces me with sad eyes and said, "Then let my actions give you an answer."

He kisses me. He kisses me passionately than ever before. He wraps his arms around me, pulling me closer that his body rubs with mine.

And I let him. For tonight, I don't think I have the strength to push him away. I can't even lift a finger to reject him.

His kisses become even more demanding but tempting. He plants kisses all over my face down to my earlobe and then to my neck. I whimper silently as he bites lightly on my neck, placing a hickey.

Suddenly, I feel weak. I don't know if it's cuz of my health or the heat emitting from his touch.

His right hand slides down to my thigh, giving me chills as he caresses it. His left hand roams under my dress, feeling my bottom. His lips go back to mine, giving me even more hot kisses.

I can hardly breathe and I start feeling funny. I feel like my insides are burning and my senses are not obeying me. Did I want this? Did I actually wait for this to happen?

His kisses go down my collarbone, biting and nipping all the way. Soon, he pulls my dress up and off my body. I'm gonna die of embarrassment as he stares at me. But I can't even push him away. I've long given up the thought of stopping him.

Right after, he slams me down the couch gently with his explosive kisses once again, his body on top my almost naked one. Right now, I'm only in my underwear and he's feeling me up completely.

More sexual and pleasurable things happen the moment he completely undresses me. He later takes off his clothes too and I get to see all of him.

After a round of breathtaking kisses again, he looks at me with those dreamy eyes, not to mention, little junior poking at my stomach all this time.

"Can I do it?" He asked, his eyes burning with desire.

I avoid looking at him. I'm dying of embarrassment as it is, why ask me of something considered as done. I only nod at him just to ease his worries.

In a second, he thrusts himself inside me. I hold my breath for the pain. They said virgins experience something painful in their first time. But then, there isn't.

I open my eyes wide in surprise as I see Jungkook eyes shut, enjoying the pleasure of making love to me. His thrusts gradually increase as the satisfaction rise. I slowly feel it too. But where's the pain?

Did he know? Was he aware that I'm not a virgin anymore? Why didn't I know? What's going on here?

As I battle my mind in the midst of everything, I shut my eyes too and hug him tight, wishing all these confusions be gone.

But then he murmurs, "(Y/N)-ah, I miss you so much. Please... remember. Please remember me."

My eyes grow wide again hearing him. What is going on? Am I really me? Am I really who I think I am?

I shut my eyes once again as my tears begin falling. What happened to me? What is there to remember?

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To be continued...

- nantokanarusa 02.23.18