cameron
she quickly storms out of the cafe, leaving me in guilt. my first instinct was to go chase after her, tell her why i'm so distant, tell her that i want to be with her, kiss her the way i used to and let her be mine.
but i knew that would just hurt her more.
i want to try so badly to let her in but i'm not gonna let her go through pain again. what if i fuck everything up like i did years back? what if the feelings aren't the same anymore? why is this so fucking hard for me.
"you okay?" i hear from above me.
i look up to see leah.
"you could say so." i say rubbing my face.
"wanna talk about it?" she asks as she sits down next to me.
"wouldn't that be awkward?" i ask as i give her more space to sit.
"i'm sure it won't be, what happened?"
"you'll hear the whole story from rosie." i sigh.
"might as well get both sides of the story." she shrugs.
"i want to be with rosie but i don't want to be the one that hurts her again, and we both know that i'm good at that. i haven't been avoiding her because of her, but because of me."i groan.
she gives me a sympathetic look.
"did you tell her that?"
"there wasn't enough time to. plus i didn't want to hurt her." i say, looking down.
her soft fingers push my chin back up, "and that's what makes you a good person."
her eyes look into mine as her fingers trail up my jaw, sending shivers through my body.
"a really good person." she whispers before locking lips with mine.
her hand trailed to the back of my head, lightly tugging on it. this is wrong but i couldn't stop my hand from trailing up her thigh and tightly gripping on it, causing smiles in between the kiss.
"definitely trying your hardest for me." i hear.
oh fuck. i quickly pull away and take my hands off leah as i saw rosie grab her bag from the booth opposite us.
"rosie come back!" leah yells as she walks away.
but rosie flips her off and carries on.
"get your hands off me." i quietly say.
"cameron, i'm s-."
"i said get your fucking hands off me!" i yell in anger, not caring if everyone looked.
she rapidly yanked her hands away before i got up and left the cafe.
"cameron!" i hear her call from behind.
"what?" i say through gritted teeth.
"i'm so sorry." she says as she approaches me.
"why did you fucking kiss me?" i say loudly.
"why did you kiss back?"
"you're an asshole." i state.
her fingers run up my chest, "don't say you didn't enjoy it."
anger fills my body and i grab her hand.
"what kind of 'best friend' are you to her?" i say before walking away.
rosie
i lay in the bathtub unable to cry or move. after a while i turned the taps off and sat there in silence. i don't know the story of what happened (i don't want to either) but i do know that they both broke my heart.
my finger traces up my arm, admiring all the scars the laid peacefully. i laugh as i remember each time i went too deep or each time it was for cameron.
i did it for him, i did everything for him. and he's doing nothing for me other than causing me pain, but i'm fine with it.
i mean that's what the game of a player did to me.
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hi guys, once again i'll say that i'm sorry for not uploading in ages
i've already started pre-writing it but i've just never got around to posting a chapter at a good time
but i hope you enjoyed this x
