rosie
it's the next day and i'm dreading to see leah. i don't want to be the reason that they break up or for leah to hate me. but i guess it's the right thing to do.
i just dropped vanessa off at school earlier and i'm on my way to confess.
"just tell me!" she says after a while of me stalling.
"it's just something about cameron." i sighed.
"meaning i should know, he's my boyfriend." she says.
i put my coffee on the table and sigh, i might as well just tell her.
"don't hate me for saying this about him." i shrug.
"i could never hate you, plus i don't even think there's something that special between cameron and i."
a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders, "so i can tell you that he's an absolute dickhead?"
"what?" she says, "cams a sweetheart!"
i start laughing at what she just said.
"well maybe he could've changed but once a dickhead...always a dickhead."
"how would you know?" she asks.
"high school, we used to 'date'." i say with quotation marks around 'date'.
her face scrunches up in confusion, "what do you mean 'date'?"
"exactly what it sounds like. the boy was a dickhead and i was a dumbass, so we played a game he made up."
"what was the game about?" she asks.
"we 'date' and whoever says i love you first loses. fucked up, i know. but i decided i wanted to play...that was probably the worst decision i'd ever made." i sigh.
"but what does that have to do with cameron being a dickhead?" she asks.
i finish up my drink, "lets go for a walk and i'll tell you all about the game of a player."
"and that's why i hate the idea of you two dating, i don't want you to get hurt like i did." i say after i explain every detail about what happened.
i look at her across the park bench and see the anger in her eyes, "i'm so sorry! if i knew about it i would've never even laid my eyes on that boy."
"don't be sorry, it wasn't all bad." i shrug.
"how? nothing good can come out of that! i'm so fucking sorry." she says.
"the best thing came out of it, i got vanessa. and if it didn't happen, i wouldn't have met you and we both know we'd be screwed without eachother." i laugh, "you just got to remember that god has a plan."
there was a silence.
"do you still love him?" she quietly asks.
"i dropped my feelings for him ages ago but seeing him yesterday, made me realise how much i miss him and how i did and do really love him." i sigh.
"i'm gonna break up with him."
my eyes widen as i look at her.
"i don't want to be the reason you break up with him!" i say.
"it's not your fault! i wasn't feeling the relationship between us but the sex was amazing." she says making me laugh, "plus i want you to know that he's changed, give him a chance?"
i sigh, "i'll see what i can do."
"i love you" she says pulling me into a hug.
"i love you too."
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well leah's out of the way now...or is she? ;)
but i hope you enjoyed it and that you're having the best start to 2018 unlike me but 2019 will be my year!
