cameron
*before rosie's house*
"come on babe!" leah called from downstairs.
"yeah!" i shouted back as i tied my shoe lace.
i ran downstairs to greet her with a peck on the lips and i quick hug.
a wide smile creeps across my face, "you look beautiful."
"thank you baby."
now, you may be thinking that i'm a horrible person and that i don't mean what i say. and you have every right to think that.
but i've changed, i know that what i did was so fucking stupid like who the fuck leaves someone when they're pregnant. but i've learnt from my mistakes, leah is the first person i've been with since what happened with rosie a few years ago.
i still think about her. if she's doing well, if she kept that baby, how her dad is, if she's found someone who is better than me.
but i guess i won't know.
rosie
i walk downstairs to see cameron playing with vanessa with smiles on their faces. immediately, i picked up vanessa and brought her away from cameron.
"it's best if you guys go." i say.
"are you okay? it's only 6:30." leah says as she stands up with josie.
"yes, please just leave." i sigh.
i lead them to the door and open it for them.
"thank you for coming." i say as leah walks out with cameron following behind her.
"it was nice meeting you." cameron says as he sticks his hand out for a hand shake.
i take a deep breath in and give him a small fake smile as i shake his hand.
his touch threw me back. like when he used to hold me or when he used to roam his hands around me. when i thought i could trust him.
i snapped out of it in realisation that he's dating leah. the door finally closes and i could finally cry in peace.
i drop down to the floor and start crying into my sleeves.
"mommy, what's wrong?" vanessa says as she gives me a hug.
"it's nothing, sweetie-let's get you to bed." i say as i wipe away the tears.
i stand up and pick up vanessa, holding her tight.
"what did that man say, honey?" i ask her as i lay her down in bed.
"i don't remember."
i give her a kiss on the forehead, "okay, goodnight babe."
"you said yesterday that you'd tell a story mommy!" she exclaims.
"i can't think of any right now." i sigh.
"tell me anything!" she says with a smile on her face.
i sit back down on her bed and think for a while.
"okay, i've got one."
she lays back into bed as she claps her hands together in excitement.
"there was a princess, who didn't know that her life would turn bad. she didn't really deserve anything good because she was rude, lazy and had no respect for other people. she also thought that boys were just toys-until she met a prince that treated her like a toy. she loved this prince, he had her in a magical trance! she realised that you can love someone and they won't love you back no matter what you did. but they had a game, a game that was a trap and was evil! she didn't know that this game was evil and would result in ruining her life she gave him all her trust just for bad things in exchange. but one good thing came out of it..the princess changed herself. she realised if she didn't love herself then how could she expect anyone else to love her. especially the one she trusted and loved the most. maybe she could've given him a second chance." my eyes started tearing up, i looked at vanessa and she was sound asleep.
"but people who want second chances don't deserve them, and people who deserve second chances won't need them." i cry, being as quiet as i can so i don't wake her up.
i wipe away the tears with my sleeve and give her a kiss on the forehead.
"i love you baby."
i get up and walk out of her room. i make my way to the bathroom and run the cold tap. after washing my face and refreshing myself, i go into my room and check my phone.
2 imessages from leah
i sigh and open up the texts.
(r-rosie, l-leah)
l: hey are you okay??
you seemed a bit off.
r: meet me for lunch at the cafe tomorrow, i'll explain.
l: okay, i love you hun.
r: and you, night x
i lock my phone and sigh. i had the urge to start crying again but i bit my lip and held it in.
it happened 5 years ago and i still can't seem to let it go. i thought that i was over him years ago. but the moment my eyes locked with his, it brought back all the times where we'd lay together and i fell into his deep, hazel, brown eyes. the moment he stuck out his hand, my first instinct was to scurry away. i didn't want him to hurt me like he did before. and the moment i shook his hand, i had a sharp pain in my stomach. his touch brought me back to all the times he held me.
but that was all the past-i just need to let go.
but i just can't seem to.
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happy new years from england! i can't believe how shit 2017 lmao.
anyways have a blessed year, i hope you enjoy it :)
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