Shortly after leaving the stage, I almost half-ran towards the holding area but was ambushed by one of the show's crew for an interview. I smiled and answered the question...almost robotically, I'm sure. And then, even with my back turned, I knew he was there...behind me.
That night, I searched the net to watch all of our performance but stumbled into the my own backstage interview. I silently applauded myself for answering that interview and looking poised and not at all self-conscious, which was entirely different from what I felt then.
There he was...Colton Dixon...co-contestant...friend...and until recently the guy for whom I chose my song for. He looked cute as ever, too cute for comfort. He was giving the camera a funny look from behind me while I was being interviewed.
For an instant, I was back into that moment...during the interview. When it ended, I think it was Skylar's or Hollie's turn to be interviewed and I remember him hugging me. I'm not if the camera caught that. I surely hope not. I'm not ready to see how I looked like while he was hugging me...a friendly hug from him but not for me. I rocked me to the core. I didn't see myself as an actress before but I know that during the hug, I certainly deserved an Oscar for acting like it didn't matter...that it was just a hug shared by friends. Surely, that was all it was for him.
I felt the familiar feeling in my heart again, I wanted to forget about the hug so i just sent several tweets to all my precious blu-jays. This silly school-girl crush for Colton is not going to help me at all when I'm around him. I sent my last tweet for the night and feel asleep...with the video of me interview and him in the background on auto-loop...
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Stuttering
FanfictionJessica finally comes to terms with her shocking elimination and the person that drove her to sing Stuttering. Purely a work of fiction using characters from American Idol season 11.
