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Fell! Sans x Suicidal! Reader

requested by~ alvarox1455

Trigger Warning!

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I gripped the rope tightly as I stood on the edge of the chair. I felt the tears stream down my face. This was it. I had enough. I can't recall exactly what caused it but something pushed me over the edge.

It may have been the constant screaming. It may have been the teasing, the abuse, the feeling of being a failure. I decided it was time to stop being a failure. 

I was sorry. I was sorry to all of the people that had wasted their time on me. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve any of their kindness. Down here there wasn't much of that but, there was some. I pulled the rope around my neck.

I tightened it. It was getting difficult to breath. I felt the tears falling faster and harder. I gasped for air as I struggled to breath. This is what I wanted wasn't it? I wanted to leave. I felt the fear crawling up.

Did I really want this? Did I really want to leave all of the kindness that they had given me. In this world of fear and death, they had chosen me, to show kindess to. But...I didn't deserve it. I didn't deserve any of it. 

I stepped of the edge with one foot. As I was about to kick the chair back the door opened. I froze. The person who opened the door did as well. 

We stared at each other for what seemed like forever. His eyes on mine. 

"K-kid."

"No! N-no...stay back," I muttered, threatening to take another step. His eyes were filled with panic. 

"(Y/n). Don't do it."

"Why?" I started, "Why?! If I do this now the world will keep going! People will carry on their day, nothing will change! I just won't be here." I screamed. I felt the chair move a little.

"That's not true! Sure things will still continue but are you even thinking about others?! Are you thinking about how Paps or Alphys would feel? How about Undyne or Metta, or Tori or Asgore?! Hell what about the kid. They can barely make it a day without you by their side. They look up to you. They love you." he was crying... "You leave this world today and their entire lives will be changed. Damnit what about me?! (Y/n) you are the reason I get out of bed. The moment I see you I feel happy. I haven't felt this way in god knows how long! So for the love of god get off the chair!" he finished. He collapsed to the floor sobbing. His hands up in almost a praying way. I paused. I felt the chair move slightly. I paused at the sudden movement. I felt myself panic. 

I didn't want to die. I didn't want to leave them. Tori, Asgore, Metta, Paps, Alphys, Undyne, or Frisk. Sans, I didn't want to leave Sans. 

"S-sans...I'm scared!" I screamed. The chair was a few inches from toppling over. Sans looked up and saw me trying to get the chair back on the ground. It happened to fast. The chair fell...bring me along with it. I saw the look of panic as I fell. I grasped for something, anything. My hands clutched around the rope. I tried to keep myself up. 

Tried to stop myself from falling. I felt my hands going numb. 

"S-sans." I choked out. In the blink of the eye I had fallen. But so had the rope. The rope was cut and I fell. I fell with a thump to the floor. 

My vision blurred, my neck burned, my body felt numb. Tears kept making their way down my face. 

"Sans! I'm sorry!" I screamed out, holding my head in my hands. I felt a pair of arms wrap aroung me and pull me close. 

"I-it's ok. It's ok (Y/n) I'm here. Y-you don't have to go through this alone. I promise." he said, tears still falling down his face. He pulled me closer, as if if he let go, I would dissapear. And honestly I was scared I would. 

I didn't want to dissapear. I wanted to stay here with everyone. With Sans. I wrapped my arms around Sans and cried. I cried for what seemed like forever as Sans just held me. Keeping me from any harm that could possibly harm me.