Under Your Warm Embrace - Eli Goldsworthy *Being Edited*

Torn

SKY'S POV

"I thought, I saw a man brought to life
He was warm, he came around and he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry

Well, you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie
The conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light

It crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck

I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn

There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on this floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn"

 

I was listening to that song for the seventh time and its only been an hour.I don't know why but l got hooked up on the song by Natalie Imbruglia and Same Mistakes by One Direction as well as Don't Forget by Demi Lovato had really gotten to me.l couldnt help but continue crying.It's been 4 days since the insident with Eli.4 days l missed school.

Jade would try to talk to me but l wouldn't listen to her.l'va been locked uo in my room for these past few days only going out to the bathroom and get water.Afterwards all l would do was go back and throw myself on my bed.l have to admit that even my mother was getting worried,and that was a lot to say considering me and my mom aren't really that close thanks to Bob.

"You're gonna have to go to school monday you know"said Jade.

"l don't if l drop out"l said thinking about it.

"l'll personally rip your hair out''she said.

''ls this your attempt at trying to make me feel better?,Because if it is then it's not working"l said sarcasticlly.Then it went silent and yet again you could hear the song play.

''Are you depressed?''she asked out of the blue.

''Why?''l asked.

''l don't know the music,your face,did you actually really ....love him?''she asked saying the last part as a wisper but l still heard her.

"l'm mad at myself for doing what l had promissed myself not to do''l answerd truthfully.

''What happend?''she asked.

"l'll tell you eventually...but not now...just please leave me alone"l said with a silent tear.

l heard the door close and put the volume to max so no one would hear me.

JADE'S POV

There's nothing left I used to cry.Inspiration has run dry.That's what's going on.Nothing's fine I'm torn...

That's all l could hear down in the living room while l tried to talk to Drew.He seemed honestly worried about Sky.Everytime he saw me at school the first thing he would say is''How's Sky?''.lf you asked me l would say he liked her.lt kinda botherd me but l would shrug it off.

"ls that her music"he aked

"Yeah''was all l said.

"When is she coming back?''he asked

"l told her to come monday but i don't know''l said truthfuly.l had no clue as to when would she get over the heart break

"Can you tell her l called?''Drew asked

"Sure thing Drew''l said

"Thanks..l just...l still can't believe Eli would say such a thing''he said shoked

"l can't either and l just met the guy''l answerd anoyed

"l'll call you back tomorrow,l have to go watch Sky for me would yah"he said

"Will do"l said

"Bye''he said

"Bye''l answerd than hung up.Ok so maybe Drew does like her.

"I'm all out of faith.This is how I feel,i'm cold and I am shamed,Lying naked on the floor"

That was Sky singing now.God...she's starting to annoy me.

ELI'S POV

 

l couldnt handle it.It's already Monday and l havent heard from Sky since last Monday.

Can l blame her?.l called the poor girl stupid infront of the whole school and technaclly dumped her.l let the anger take over me and now l don't have the girl l love next to me.Yes LOVE l realised it during this past week.She trully showed me what it was to cry.The only person l can blame is my self.

"Hey man,you ok?"asked Adam.

"Just dandy"l answerd sarcasticlly.

"She feels the same''Adam answerd a bit sad.

"lt's my fault l was being an idiot and ruined it with her.''l answerd with my head down.

"Jade told Drew that Sky has been up in her room and won't eat that much"he said.

Now l felt guilty.

"She's coming to school today,she promised Drew she would"Adam said than left.

Drew this Drew that! What the hell is Drew up to!.l thought throwing my book on the floor.I couldn't be mad if she ran to his arms l was the one to blame.Maybe she doesn't like him back.But now l know that what l thought of Drew was true.He's in love with Sky.

Have l lost that girl that l adore?.Will she leave me for someone else?.l don't want her to.l won't let her.