Only You (Sequel to Why Try)

Chapter nineteen

"You know what hurts the most?" He continued to look at me with a 'sorry' look on his face.
"That you said to her that you two should meet up again".
"Babe I-I didn't say-"
"BULLSHIT JUSTIN. SHE FUCKING TEXT ME AND TOLD ME HERSELF!" I screamed in his face, I've had enough.
I clicked on the text again.
"Tell Justin I loved meeting up with him today, we had a laugh, I'm guessing you've saw the pictures of us laughing and smiling whist we had coffee at lunch time. Tell him I'd like to meet up again, like he said we should". I read part of the text to him and he just sat there, didn't say a word, now I know he did say it.

"Do you know how that makes me feel? My own husband saying that to his ex? You want to meet up with her again? Why?"
"I-I don't know"
"Oh fuck off Justin, when you two were together you said to me that you wanted me back and you didn't love Jade anymore so why the fuck do you want to meet up with her again? Do you miss or something?"

He didn't answer me.

"You do don't you. Oh my god. Do you not remember what she was like to me? Sitting outside my house when our son was inside, talking shit about me online, released a diss song about you. Wow"

"I can't believe you're overreacting like this. I don't miss her at all Bells, I promise. We literally spoke for twenty minutes if that"
"Overreacting? Justin you were papped having lunch with your bitch of an ex who cause so much shit for us. You were laughing and then told her to meet up with you again. Get out of my car"
"No. We need to talk about this"
"I'm done talking. Don't come back to the house either. Maybe you should go to her house" I said with thee bitchiest tone in my house.
"I just thought we were happy Justin. We have two boys at home, we are married, I thought we were in a good place, finally back on track with our relationship"
"We are, just shut up for a second and hear me out"
"No. Now get out!"
"No Bells stop this!"
I can't take this anymore.
"You know maybe we should just stop all of of this, us"
"What? Ari don't say that. I'll never speak to her again I promise. Don't end us over something stupid".
"Whatever. I need some time to think. Get out"
"I think you're overreacting like always. We spoke for twenty minutes get the fuck over it and stop acting like a fucking brat Aribella you're 22 so act your age. You're making a big fucking fuss over nothing! Sort your fucking head out, I'm done"
He opened the car door and slammed it shut, I let out a sob. Wow.
I went onto Tiana's contact name and pressed call.
"Hello you okay?"
"If Justin comes to the house, don't let him in. I mean it Tiana, don't". I sniffled and watched Justin speed away in his car.
I honestly don't give a fuck where he goes now.
"Okay but what happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it right now. Just don't let him get the boys! Please!" I hung up and threw my phone on the back seats. I wiped mY tears away and put my seat belt on. Time to go home.

Maybe I am overreacting but I just hate Jade's guts and seeing them two together just hurt me so much.

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"So-so did he come back?" I asked Tiana as my hands shook and I carried on pacing up and down in the living room, Tiana was sat in front of me.Harper, Wolf and Ted are all asleep upstairs, thank god.
"No, he hasn't- Bells stop!!...please you're making me nervous" I stopped pacing and sat down on the nearest chair, my legs bouncing up and down like they were going a million miles per hour.
"Maybe I am overreacting about it all"
"I don't think you are. They are both in the wrong here. She should've have sent the text and he should've asked to see her again. You have every right to act out and be pissed off. Justin had no right to say what he did. I get that he was mad but he needs to apologise for it"
"I don't know where he is or if he's even gonna come back tonight"
"What did you say to him?"
"Well I did say don't come back bu-" I was cut off by the front door opening. I quickly stood up and practically ran to the door, Justin was back.

"Don't start..please. I'm done arguing Aribella". He sounded exhausted and his eyes looked heavy and dark.
"No no I don't want to argue..can we talk? Calmly? All of the kids are asleep".
He let out a sigh but nodded.
"Tee we won't be long, we'll just be outside"
I followed Justin outside and quietly shut the front door. We sat down on the steps, in pure silence.
I began to play the the cuff on my joggers, well this is awkward.

"Look, I'm sorry for what I said, I was out of order" Justin spoke up.
"You said it because I wound you up and caused a big argument between us. I still am fucked off and upset with you but I don't want to fight no more"
"Hmm..I've been thinking and Canada sounds good right now like just for a week or so"
"Erm okay? I'll go pack mine and the boy-"
"I'm going on my own"
"What? W-why?"
"We need space!"
I took in a shaky breath and just stared at the dark pavement.
"So you're just gonna go to Canada and just leave me and the kids?"
"I'll take Wolf with m-"
"No. If you want to go just go. I'm not gonna kick up a big fuss, don't have the energy right now. Just go before they wake up in the morning. If they ask I'll tell them, they deserve to know where their dad is gone".

He stood up and opened the front door. He left it open, I just watched him walk up the stairs and turn into our bedroom.

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I'm still sat outside alone. I have been for the past twenty minutes, Justin is still upstairs.
It's quite chilly out but I didn't want to move from the steps, I don't want him to go. I know I told him to not come back tonight but I never thought he'd go to Canada.

I heard the bedroom door shut and I looked up to see Justin picking up his suitcase, he had a backpack on his back too. He got changed so now he's just in black joggers, a large black sweater and some Nike sneakers.

He reached the bottom step and I continued to look at him with tears in my eyes.
"I'll be back next week, give the boys a kiss from me".
I stood up and walked back up the few steps until I was stranding in the door way.
"Justin please don't go! I'm sorry for causing this"
"You didn't cause this, I did and I'm sorry. We just need some time apart. Excuse me"
Tears began to fall but I quickly wiped them away, still not moving from the doorway.
"Justin please you don't have to do this"
I lightly held onto his arm thinking that was gonna stop him but it didn't. He got closer to me so I moved to the side so he could walk past.
He opened his car door and put his big and suitcase in and then closed it again.
"I know this isn't what we both want but it's for the best. We can talk in a few days, I'll call you. I'm sorry" Justin walked over to me and kissed my forehead. "I love you" he said one last time before getting into his car and starting the ignition and putting his headlights on.
"Please don't go" I said to myself very quietly but it was too late. He reversed his car and drove off into the darkness. He's gone.

This is all Jade's fault, why did she have to go over to him and then send me that bitchy text?. She knew exactly what she was doing and it's worked. All I'm gonna say is that I better not see her or else world three is going to start. Trust me.

This is going to be a hard week. I stood in the driveway just staring at the gate, shivering.
Tears were still falling down my cheeks, I don't even have the energy to wipe them away.
"C'mon, it's chilly now. We can cuddle in bed and watch something on the TV" Tiana said to me as she put her arm around me and we walked inside.

What would I do without my bestfriend?.