Is this happiness ?

Chapter XXXVI

The first thing Dazai did in the morning was to go to the bathroom, not just to take a shower though but also to release some stuff because of the night he just spent with the ginger being all over him. When they went downstairs, Kouyou was awake long ago and already prepared the breakfast, she was just waiting for them. "Of course she didn't forget about it ..." the brunet though as he felt Kouyou's eyes on him following every movement and detail about him. He obviously wanted to bring up the subject with her so that she doesn't tell her son about it but he couldn't with Chuuya around.

Fortunately for him, he didn't have to do anything, Kouyou got the situation and was the one taking care of it as she asked Chuuya to buy some ingredients that were missing in the house for the lunch he wanted to prepare. The ginger, as dense and innocent as he was, got nothing of their plan, he just wore his clothes and took an umbrella with him since it was raining then went out finally leaving his mother and his crush alone.

Dazai never thought he would ever tense up like this. He set behind the counter separating the living and dinning room from the kitchen as he stared up at the ginger's mother washing the dishes. He wanted to suggest to wash them to earn some points but he refrained himself, he knew how bad he was at it. He set there silently waiting for her to bring up the subject but it seems that this wasn't her plan as she only talked about the cold weather these days or asked him some questions about his family. After a long moment, he guessed that she was waiting for him to have some guts and start the subject by himself. He breathed in to calm his nerves then suddenly called :"Kouyou-san, for what you witnessed last night ..."

She turned and handed him a cup of chocolate milk then smiled softly and waited for him to carry on. He thanked her for the cup first then prepared himself for any answer before he seriously says :"I love your son ." He had that serious look while staring at her in the eyes that she couldn't help but chuckle as she went to sit beside him. She surprised him by pinching his nose then laughed :"Why are you getting all serious ? It's not like i'll get all overprotective and ask you to never get close to him. Actually, i'm really glad to know that someone as nice as you has such feelings for my son."

The brunet couldn't help but feel surprised :"You mean that you won't have a problem if we become lovers ?" She just stared at him with the same smile and he realized his question was stupid :"No, i mean ... i am the one who is glad both for meeting your son and for knowing that you will approve our relationship if we ever had one."

"Well ..." Kouyou took a sip of the cup of coffee she prepared for herself then carried on :"... it isn't up to me but up to him to decide, he isn't young anymore ..." she stopped for a moment then continued :"Did you tell him about your feelings ?"

"Not yet ..." Dazai answered as he thought of something else and he took all his courage again to ask :"You said that it's up to him, would that be the same if i asked him to marry me ?" And she instently choked on the coffee she drank making the brunet panick. She apologized instently and reassured him that she was fine then said :"Why are you thinking about getting married when you didn't even finish your high school years besides, it has been only months you two know each other ..."

"I get that we are too young but i'm still asking, if i ever asked him to marry me and he said yes, would you be against it ?" Dazai had such a calm yet serious tone that she could only think "This child is serious ..." she opted to be honest and direct with him this time :"It still is up to him, he is the one to take the decision and bear it's consequences. All i can do is advice him and i will be honest with you, i won't advice him to accept, you two are still too young and you know nothing about this world." She thought she was being too harsh with him so she softened her tone a little then added :"But even if he still accepts then i will respect his decision and even if later, he regrets, i will stand beside him and help him as much as i can ... i am his mother after all ."