HAZE OF HOPELESSNESS

Chapter One

Hy cuties. Well, this my second book, These last tears was my first. Actually wanted to stop writing after that one but my passion for writing wont allow me so here i am with an amazing, interesting, heartbreaking and emotional story, haze of hopelessness which i bet, you all will love InshaAllah.

So grab a bowl of grape, on the AC, relax on your bed and read this short chapter peacefully, then vote and tell me what you think about the story by commenting.

I sat on the bed, i felt broken, i felt alone, i felt empty inside. I was in pain and numb at the same time. Perhaps, my pain is so much now that i can no longer distinguish it. It is a emotional and physical pain, a weight on my chest crushing my existence, crushing my hopes and dreams.

All i want, all i hope and all i was praying for was death, as it was the only thing that can give me peace

I close my eyes slowly, allowing the tears to flow freely and i whisper, oh Allah, i don't want to live anymore. Oh Allah please, i don't want to live anymore.

Oh mankind, there has come to you a protection from your lord and a healing for what is in your heart;and for does who believe, a guidance and a mercy (Quran 10:57), i remember what mum said

Am Yasmeen Yaseer, a 19 year old girl who have gone through more than what her age could bear. Am from a rich family but i never enjoy what it meant to be rich. Am from a family of five. My dad, Alhaji Yaseer who even the devil himself will bow for, then my mum, Hajiya Balki, a weak and hopeless mother who cant support her own daughter. Then my elder brother, Mubarak which we call yaya, he is 27, working in one of dad hotel, i so much love him cause his a brother everyone will wish to have and then, the last born of the house, fareeda which we call auta, She is 15 years old though She act more than her age, She is in ss3,i so much love her but i always pray to the Al-mighty that She don't go through what i went through

All my life, i always wish to live a respect full life but Allah has install something else for me

Today was my wedding night or should i call it heartbroken night

I was married to someone i thought loved me but i was so crazy to think so as it was all a drama

As every girl, i was wishing to have a romantic and memorable wedding night even though i have gone through more than i deserve

Here i was, sitting on the bed, waiting for my husband to come

After what seem like forever, he enter but not the way i expected. He went inside the bathroom passing me, making me feel like one dumpy. After some minute, he came out, went to the left side of the bed, and lay down, busy with his phone

Did i offend him? Was he pretending all does months?? Different thought was going on in my mind when he finally broke the silent

Will you go and change or expecting me to come and open your veil huh, he said to my utmost surprise but i thought it was all a prank so i keep shut

Are you deaf?, he said shouting in my ear and i almost jump off the bed

Hey, am not here to play with you, i married you out of my own will okay? And you have to listen to what ever i said, don't dare try to act smart and if you do, you will end up going back to your foolish father and you know.

And you know, no one will love to marry a girl that have been raped hundred times by her father, disgusting he added, and walk out of the room, living me there, in my own world of pain but i wasn't surprise, if my own family cant make me happy, why should someone do, after all, pain was what keep me alive

Unkown POV

Marriage?? Hahaha, it was the last thing in my mind cause i don't see the use of getting married when they are enough girls out there that can satisfy me

Well, am Amaar Ahad, a spoil brat and a wealthy dude. Am 25 but am too wealthy for my age, well that how it suppose to be. Am from a family of four, my dad,late Alhaji Ahad,he just pass away a year back which i was more than happy about as he was just a burden. Than my mum, hajiya Fatima, what should i say about her? Well, She is just a caring mum though to me, She is so irritating and annoying, i wish She just died along with her husband, it will be a relieve. Than my younger brother, Ahmed, who is working under me, i kinda love him as i think and his just 20. I forget, i have two poor aunties that are living with us, they are widow

I never loved the girl am married to but have to pretend cause of mum but i must admit, She is so cute but still, i don't give a heck

After what seem like forever, the wedding was over and all i need was a warm shower and sound sleep

I went to meet the bride after so much persuasion from mum only to see her sitting, waiting for me to come and open her veil which got me so annoyed

After taking warm shower, and dress up, i went to lay on the left side of the bed while She was still sitting down like a statue which got me more pissed off.

I could not hold my anger again so i gave her what She deserve before bouncing out of the room

I went to my usual place that brings me joy, club. Yeah am a club guy, as it gives me joy

I order for the most expensive drink and sat with some girls , when i was high, i pick two girls and went in with them to have fun

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