Fucked Over

17. Reason

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Everyone grows up differently, that has never been questioned. Everyone feels different. Everyone does things for their own benefit. Selfish? Maybe, but I say in the end it's worth it. No one is perfect and I say to judge is to sin. Just because you attend a meeting for your religion doesn't automatically make you 'good', it doesn't mean you will go to your designated place whether is be heaven or something like heaven. And just because you get tattoos, or piercing it doesn't make you 'bad'

Everyone has their own reasons.

Tiffany's P.O.V

I awoke in the arms of Matt. My eyes slowing fluttering taking in the surroundings. I had never officially been in Matt's room yet it was everything I pictured it to be.

He had his bed with his blue sheets, he had his walls covered with posters of people he admired. He had a laptop and at the moment it had been messy.

I slowly detached myself from the blonde boy, smiling that I didn't wake him. I checked his clock to see it was only 6am.

I slowly left his room and quietly shut his door. Looking down at my outfit I had realized I was still in the same apparel as yesterday. My hair was tangly and I had morning breathe. I rushed to my room and picked out my Adidas sweats and a shirt I took from Taylor that read obey. I went to the bathroom and jumped on the shower slowly cleaning myself.

My mind raced at the memory of yesterday, I had wonder what happened but I wouldn't bother to ask.

Once out of the shower I placed my hair in a messy pony tail. Leaving the bathroom I heard the backdoor shut. I followed the noise and saw Cameron outside taking out a smoke.

I went outside and hugged him from behind

Cameron's P.O.V

I hadn't slept at all, my mind wouldn't allow it.

How can one fall, all the time and climb again?
How does one heart feel so lost, to find again?
How can one road, lead, the way today?
Before, givin it all...

I wish I could fly to the top of the mountains,
so that I could see just how far this will go.
Feels like I'm stuck in the battle, be quick with no arma
but still standing strong cuz to be a survivor y'all gotta
know how, y'all better know how to keep holdin' on.

How does one give all they got, (trust) receive the half?
How does one live day to day, forget the past?
I'm all here on my own,(if so) Imma do this all alone.
I can never live and be afraid, yeah...

Against the wind, I'm not givin' in, I once spoke to
a prophet he said don't stop til' you got it
I'm not feeling fooled, I'm not letting go
they trynna break me down but I'm not fraction for all we know,
this rock keep roll, would it just be the translation to unstopable,
before the world recall those in, I wish I had win, to pretend and then..
Then maybe I could...

Feels like I'm stuck in the battle, be quick with no arma
but still standing strong cuz to be a survivor y'all gotta
know how, y'all better know how to keep holdin...

Two small arms wrapped around me, it took me by surprise. I put the cig in my mouth, wrapping my lips around it and taking in the familiar toxin.

"You should stop, your fans wouldn't like you starting again" she commented

"They don't have to like it." I responded simply

She hugged me tighter, as I felt tears on my back.

"Do you love me?" I questioned

"I do" she responded

"Do you love me?" She asked

"Never have stopped" I answered

John Stephen's P.O.V

I knocked on their door and waited for an answer, soon enough one came.

"What do you want" she asked

"I want to apologize, just here me out okay?" She nodded her head

"I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn't want to
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you

And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining

And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me" I started

"I always thought it sad the way we act like strangers, after all that we had we act like we have never meet, I always thought it was a shame, the way we had to play these games, it felt like you really knew me now it feels like you see through me." I finished

"I do see through you, I see all the bullshit you say. I can't believe a word you say because they're all lies. I played your game, time after time. And I lost. Time after time. If you really care About me leave me the fuck alone. Let me be happy for once. Go be there for your kid! For my sister!" She told me angrily

And I could never blame her

Nor would I try

Because everything she spoke has been true.