I watched as his hair grew longer and my feelings grew too.
I got stuck in my head and made up "I love you"s.
It was getting hard to focus and to ignore the fact,
That I was falling, too hard and too fast.
See my feelings were beginning to crop up and it was apparent he could see.
What I was going through-what he was doing to me.
I guess that gave him the go-ahead, the ball was in his court.
I was shipwrecked on his island, stuck in his port.
And the sunlight complimented his looks, as he seemed to glow in sunsets.
I slapped myself everytime I thought that, I was caught in a net.
But his eyes could see my soul and he knew all my insecurities.
He knew way more than I wanted, he knew ALL of me.
I knew more than I needed to about him, which meant I cared more.
It made it harder to leave and to find a reason for.
I was losing my common sense and making dumb decisions.
Cupid had been spot on and shot with precision.
My heart was hanging in the balance and I was unsure of where I stood.
I wished my mind was a whiteboard and could be erased as it should.
Through birthdays and off days and days we will never speak about,
I watched as his feelings did the rounds.
Would he love, would he play, would he break her heart?
Would he put her back together or tear her further apart?
Would he put himself first and lie through his teeth?
Would his world revolve all around him? Would he forget me?
And past the selfies and jokes, we were too good to be true.
He called me his girl and I called him blue.
And after shredding the many poem ideas he had gave me and regaining my footing,
I remembered why I had fallen and why I shouldn't.
And as I waited for some assurance of some sort or a snap out of it,
My brain remained calm as my heart threw a fit.
And as I watched him recede back into the friend zone, he had been so nice.
I knew the next time I had to think twice.
I had took a chance and looks seemed bad.
It looked like he hadn't caught my heart, I had.
-21 August 2017, 08:56
