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Everything that surrounded me had felt so oddly surreal, my body being coated with an ethereal aura.

The clearing felt so real yet so distant at the same time. It was as though I was witnessing an out-of-body experience, where I could watch my soul travel away from the negativity and brokenness that swamped my mind.

I watched as my spirit floated among the trees. It took the form of a beautiful young woman; it was the form of someone who I had wished to be.

She looked very relaxed and calm as she continued to soar, the weight lifting from my chest as I watched her approach me once more. Her hand reached out for mine, causing my body to turn cold before I had allowed myself to move. Her fingers grasped mine and the warmth spread uncontrollably, my body trembling as she returned within my chest.

I thought for a moment, realizing that the person I aspired to be was within me all along. For years, I have told myself that I am not good enough and that I must change myself before I can be accepted.

But that's not true.

The woman who I aspire to be is still inside of me.