• Bts Angst •

「 yoongi 」

She's so stupid i mean who does that?

"Ahh!"she tripped and fell back wards but before she could my body reacted first and held her by her waist and her back.

Not noticing how close our faces are

"Yoongi, i know that you already know that i like you and i'm just gonna say this again. I love you with all of my heart min yoongi even if you don't feel the same way..but i just wish that we would actually be--"out of the blue she said, but i cuts her off and lets go of her.

"Y/n please--"i groaned when she cuts me off "Min Yoongi just listen to me please!"she screamed with tears streaming down her face

"Y/n are you fucking dumb or what?!i already told you numerous times that i won't ever feel the same way!and you know that so why do you keep pushing yourself towards me!"i shouted ignoring the fact that there were a few people looking at us.

"But yoongi I've been liking you for 2 years now and now all i'm asking is just for you to atleast appreciate me as a person!"she cries

"Arent you ashamed of your self?!i mean just look how desperate you are to be with me!"

"Im not desperate!"

"Yes you are!why do you keep pushing yourself to me when i dont want you!when i dont like you!when i dont want to see you!your face annoys me very much!"i yelled as i watch her flinch at the tone of my voice, now all i could see is nothing but pain in her eyes.

She then embraced me in a hug "yoongi can you atleast please..tell me that you love me..even if you don't..i just want to hear it" i felt my heart ache as i try to say something but nothing is coming out

"Poor girl..."my head turned to see a couple looking at us worriedly

I can feel my shirt getting wet because of her tears..i quickly pushed her off me "dont force yourself to someone who doesnt like you..so please leave me alone after all of this shit just like you had promise me because i dont want to see you anymore"

and that's all i could say

Y/n's POV
I tightly hugged him, this is probably the last time i would be able to do this..i dont want to leave yet.

I don't want to go yet..i still want to fix things, i still want to live my life. I wish i could go back in time and fix everything i had done to make yoongi miserable.

Or just atleast change the past where i didn't met him in the first place so he won't be fully miserable..

I feel my self getting dizy but suddenly i felt him pushing me off making me stumble backwards and falling on my butt.

I looked up and when i did our eyes met and locker for a few seconds but what felt like an eternity. And for those few seconds i didn't know if i saw it right..

I saw pain, regret, anger and rage..but i could sense a little bit of a soft expression in his face when we made eye contact.

Sometimes we try to hide our feelings, but we forgot that our eyes speak.

"dont force yourself into someone who doesn't like you..so please leave me alone after all of this shit just like you had promised me because i dont want to see you anymore"i quickly stood up as i hung my head low as i notice a few people are still looking at me.

I hate it when i cry infront of people..This is embarrassing but it's fine, it already happened.

I ignore the looks that some people were giving me; a look of pity and a look of pure disgust

I quickly went to my car and drove back to my house. As i was greeted by my brother "you're home!"he smiled and hugged me but frowned after when he saw my face

"What happened?"he asked "nothing ill go sleep now since its already 7 pm in the evening"i say as i kicked off my shoes and neatly placing them beside hoseoks and walked upstairs

"But its still earl--"i stopped in my tracks and gave him a small smile "i'm really tired"he sighs and gives me a nod before walking towards the kitchen.

Yoongi is right..i shouldnt have forced myself to him since the very start but through out all of this that wasn't always what i wanted..

Since the first time he had ever rejected me, i always hoped since then that if he couldn't like me as a lover, then maybe he would like me as a person.

Or atleast be my friend.

Author's POV
Days has passed and y/n fulfilled her promise to yoongi. He never once heard of her ever again since that incident that had happened a few days ago.

She never showed herself to yoongi just like what he wanted, she had never talked to him or even contacted him ever since.

Usually every morning the boy would receive a goodmorning text from the girl but now he doesn't. He wanted this, so why was he feeling so weird and strange?

Something is just off, something is just not right. It took yoongi another few days to realize and admit to himself that yes he had fallen inlove with the girl.

It started a year ago, when y/n told him that someone wanted to court her. Yoongi back then didn't wanna admit that he was jealous, oh but he was.

Now that she's gone, he had never ever felt so empty inside. The guilt he was feeling was slowly eating him up and it's really disturbing and felt bad.

He couldn't even focus anymore, he couldn't even sleep. He would always find himself thinking about her every day and night.

He somewhat felt lonely.

Everytime they were in their dorm he would always see her everymorning, usually she would come up to him and greet him.

But now she didn't do nothing but ignore him. He knew that if he talks to her he would probably look like a fool, but he really wanted to fix things right. He just didn't know how.

Three weeks has passed and even hoseok was ignoring him, well he completely understands why. Hoseok is her brother and obviously y/n would've probably told him everything.

"Hoseok"he called for the younger "yeah"hoseok replies but didn't look away from his phone and continues to play with it.

"H-how is y-y/n?"he cursed his self for stuttering and that's when hoseok looked up, tilting his head. "Concerned now aren't ya?"yoongi didn't answer but instead he looked away and sighed.

"I'm sorry for what i did to your sister"hoseok shakes his head "i shouldn't be the one you should be apologizing to, but anyways..she's fine"hoseok lied

Y/n was not fine, currently she's fighting for her life. But he couldn't let yoongi know even if yoongi does like her. If yoongi finds out about it, it would just make y/n even more sad because she had to go really early and there wouldn't be any more time for the both of them.

Y/n's POV
"Please tell yoongi..i love him okay hoseok-oppa?"i softly smiled at him and he gives me a nod as he hung his head low sobbing and sniffing..

"Always take care of yourself..and remember that i love you hoseok oppa."my voice cracked as i feel my eyes watering and then he embraced me in a hug.

I closed my eyes "i will miss you y/n-ah"i nodded "same..maybe we'll meet again some other time..maybe in another life" i say as he pulls away smiling very softly at me again

"I'm tired..i think i need to sleep" my eyes fell on my brother's eyes and i see his lips tremble and his hands shaking. "Goodbye y/n"i closed my eyes as soon as i felt a soft pair of lips on top of my forehead.

I lightly opened my eyes and looked outside the window..

Spring Day － it always reminded me of him..Well Yoongi-ah, i'll miss you..until we meet again.