INSIDE MY MIND

Confidence

Title: Confidence 

Date Written: 19/01/16

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Hey! I'm back!

WARNING- There is sensitive content in this poem. It addresses suicide and cutting. You have been warned.

ENJOY.

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Confidence is everything they say.

But she lacks it,

And she can't help it.

Is it her fault that her head falls?

Yes falls,

When faced with situations that highlights her flaws.

Confidence is everything they say.

But she can't look someone in the eye

For a long period of time

For her eyes also fall

Trying in vain to hide the pain

Because the eyes are the pathway to the soul

Or so we are told.

Confidence is everything they say.

But she only feels confident when she's alone.

Alone at home

Listening to the soothing lyrics.

The only thing that gets her through this.

This life.

Confidence is everything they say.

Now she's wondering...

If confidence is everything

Does that mean she's worth nothing?

Confidence is everything they say.

But they break her down

Shooting down that precious thing

C.O.N.F.I.D.E.N.C.E

Failing to see

The pain she tries so hard to hide

Beneath this amazing thing...a smile

They chose to ignore the fact that she tries.

They make her question "Why not die?"

Confidence is everything they say.

But the only thing she is confident about in this moment is that

One slit

On One Wrist

Across One Vein

Can end this worldwind of pain.

Confidence is everything they say.

If you don't have it you are nothing.

If you have it you are worth everything.

There is no in between. 

No one cares if you try.

Its either you do or you don't.

Thats the problem with this world

They all want the final product 

And overlook the hard work that goes into making it

Confidence is everything they say.

But she doesn't have it.

She now concludes that in this world

Its better to die for not having it

Than to live without it.

Yes.

Confidence is everything they say.

Now they are forced to face the fact that they are the reasons why her life slowly faded away

What's left?

Only a single piece of paper

One with only six words.

It read.

If

Only

I

Had

Your

Confidence.

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Hope you guys enjoyed this piece.

Stay beautiful my lovlies.

Nia ✌️