Free Verse

An Open Letter to the Man I Once Loved

I've always looked at you from afar and hurt myself doing so.

I know what you have in mind: you're disgusted by me. I know that feeling very well.

I know you've got a woman on your mind, waiting for her to come back. I know that once she does, you will resume your postponed love story.

I can see a vision of you being the father of her child and the least I can do for you is to be happy.

They said "why don't you try falling in love with a woman?" As if it's easy, as if I can do that in just a flick of a f*cking finger.

But, Alas! This is the saddest part of being gay that no one fully understand—to see the man you once loved father a child of another woman.