pairing: sonny de la vega x reader
title: inútil
request: none
Prompt: None
note: this is a songfic to inútil from ITH. i will not be using all the lines.
WC: 338
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this isn't happening.
sonny and i had been fighting a lot lately. but today's fight was the one that hurt me the most. he was mad because i promised that I'd go on a walk around the neighborhood with him. but i couldn't go because of a family emergency; my mom was in labor. of course, i didn't tell sonny because i had gotten my phone taken away for staying out past my curfew.
"this is all your fault, abby!" sonny yelled at me.
"how is this my fault?" i asked.
"because you're inútil, useless!" he said
his words hurt like bricks. the last time anyone ever called me that was when my dad was still in my life. i got lucky though, because my mom married another man who i know would never say that.
he stood there staring at me. Useless.
sonny and i just stood there in an awkward silence. for the first time in a while, i cried. his face didn't even soften. he didn't care.
i will not be the reason that my family can't succeed.
my family moved to this particular place in new york because they thought that it would help my depression and schizophrenia. apparently, when people treat you like you're their family, you actually feel like you belong in the world. but right now, it all seems fake.
i will do what it takes.
"you're wrong! i am not useless!" i yelled back.
i got my happiness in life and i am not about to lose it because of daily fights with my boyfriend. he doesn't control my emotions or my life.
"well other people surely agree with me, abby." he replied.
"get out." i demanded.
for once, his face softened.
"get out, sonny!" i repeated.
this time, he left. i locked myself in my closet and just cried.
{July 19, 2017 4:08PM}
{edited november 10th 2017. 2:44pm}
