Every Bad Thing

Chapter Twenty-Seven

He handed me the rose before doing a royal curtsy, asking me for a dance. I rolled my eyes and laughed at his ridiculousness. Agad din na natapos ang turn niya. I didn't realize he was the seventeenth rose until the song ended. The room went extra dim, the spotlight was entirely glowing down on me. 

I found a love for me

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko at parang intake ng kaba. Inilibot ko ang mga mata para hanapin siya. Hindi na ako masyadong pinahirapan dahil tumapat ang isa pang spotlight kay Silas. 

My heart squeezed at the sight of him. He's standing a few distance across from me, holding the last rose. His face was straight, there weren't any amusement in his eyes. He licked his lip before taking a step, and I immediately knew that he's nervous.

"H-Hey." he awkwardly said when he reached in front of me.

I couldn't supress the stupid grin from spreading on my face. "Hey."

"F-For you." inabot niya ang long stemmed rose sa akin. Nanginginig pa ang kamay niya. Pinigilan ko ang sarili sa paghalakhak masyado.

"Thank you. You're so kind." I softly giggled. Silas didn't move. He seemed so unsure and shy. He looked adorable. I bit my lip. "Do you wanna dance with me?"

Huminga siya nang malalim at tumango. His eyes never left my face. I could see the emotions in it now. It's filled with so much emotion. Dread, adoration, terror, nervousness, love... It was overwhelming. Kahit na hindi niya sabihin at gawin ay ramdam na ramdam ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero parang gusto kong maiyak habang kaharap siya. 

I did the next move. He patiently waited for me as I took careful steps toward him. Dahan-dahan kong inangat ang mga braso at ipinatong iyon sa kanyang balikat. I let it circle his nape, locking my fingers together.

Napasinghap si Silas nang inangat niya ang isang braso at dahan-dahan na ipinulupot sa isa kong bewang. Halos hindi na ako huminga nang isinuod niya ang isa pang braso. Our distance ceased and I'm not sure if it's because he pulled me in or I walked towards him on my own. Like magnet. I was drawn.

When his muscles relaxed, I buried my face on his chest. Silas stilled briefly, but softened afterwards. His warmth felt good. I couldn't help but melt against him.

Silas started swaying softly. I followed his lead. I'll do whatever he wants as long as we'll stay just like this. I don't want this to end. I don't want the song to end. Maybe I could ask someone to play the song on loop for me?

"Laurene..." he whispered at the top of my ear. I didn't remove my face from his chest, humming in response. "You look perfect."

Muling sumikip ang dibdib ko. Three words and he easily managed to ruin my system. I bit my lip. I never told him. When he said he's in love with me... I never said it back. But he can feel it, right? What I feel for him...

"Silas..." inilayo ko ang aking ulo mula sa kanyang dibdib at tiningnan siya nang maayos. His eyes were immediately on mine, ready to listen to every word I have to say. I nervously licked my lips. "You know it, right?"

He stared at me for a while, as if trying to grasp my words. When his forehead creased, I knew he didn't get what I was trying to say. His eyes scanned my whole face, as if he'd be able to find the answers there.

Mariin na ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko. "Y-You're everything... to me, too."

I don't know why it hurts to tell him this. Maybe because it feels to raw and real, because what I feel for him is to intense... too much. Those two words again. It's the best words that I could describe him and what he makes me feel. Extremely too much.