But when I looked back to him he wasn't glaring anymore, just looked sad. I walked over and grabbed his suitcase. "Come on, I'll take this to your room."
He looked sort of pleased, and somewhat...relieved? "Thanks Johnny, but I ain't helpless you know. I could have gotten it."
I laughed. "Of course I know that. I want to help you."
We got to his room and I set it down. He was staring at me for some reason. "What?" I asked, feeling self conscious.
He shyly walked closer and wrapped his arms around me tightly, crying. I was a bit stunned at first, but hugged him back.
One hand was in his hair as the other rubbed his back. "Shh...why're ya crying Ponyboy?"
"M-missed you. Missed this."
I moved to sit down on the bed and he wrapped his legs around my waist and buried his head in my shoulder.
I swear on my life that we didn't let go of each other for nearly an hour. Just sat there, holding onto one another.
"Johnny..." he whispered after the long silence.
I pulled him closer somehow. "Yeah?"
He sniffed, and then laughed for a second. "You got anymore notes?"
I kissed his temple and nodded, pulling away from him. "It's downstairs, I'll be right back."
I walked into the living room and everyone was looking at me. "Y'all have been in there for a while." Darry laughed while reading the newspaper.
I rubbed the back of my neck and blushed. "Have we?"
"Yep." Two-bit grinned. "What were y'all doing?"
I reached into the pocket of my jeans jacket that was hanging on the coat rack. "Just spending time with each other."
I quickly grabbed the note and walked back to Pony and Soda's room.
Pony was laying on the bed, staring at the ceiling with a small smile on his lips.
I laughed. "That place must have worked good. I don't think I've seen you smile this much in a long time."
He nodded. "It wasn't really the place that helped, more like the people there. Like Jeffy. He's one of my best friends now."
I swallowed. "O-oh. What's he like?"
Pony smiled. "Good to talk to, he likes reading almost more than I do, and he's really sweet. Gave me lots of advice on..." he looked up at me and shook his head. "Er, nothing."
I looked down. Of course Pony would like him more than me. They've got a lot more in common. It only makes sense. "W-well now I feel silly giving you this note." I said and hid it behind my back a bit.
He furrowed his brows. "Why?"
"I signed it as 'your best friend'."
"I'm confused..." he said after a second. "Are we not best friends?"
I clenched my fist lightly. "You said Jeffy was your new one."
"No I didn't, I said he was one of my best friends, not my absolute very best friend." He said defensively.
I sighed, not wanting to argue anymore. "Well, here you go."
He eagerly took the note and began reading it.
Ponyboy,
Boy I sure did miss you this week. The gang keeps teasing me because every time I talk it's usually about something that involves you. I don't mind though. You make me happy.
Your best friend,
JohnnyHe looked up and smiled. "I make you happy?"
I shyly nodded.
"You make me happy too." He put his hand on my shoulder.
I sighed. "Not as happy as Jeffy makes you."
"Johnny..." he frowned and I looked away.
"I-it's fine. Really I'm okay." I wasn't okay.
Pony stared at me. "Johnny no one could ever replace you. I mean, you've always been by my side. You've stood with me through thick and thin. I just love you so..." his eyes widened. "I love you a lot man. You're my best friend. You always will be."
I frowned a bit at getting friend zoned (again), but it's better than not being friends at all I guess. I sighed. "Always?"
He nodded. "Always."
That made me smile, and realize that I wasn't really being fair to Pony. He was just excited about making a friend. "Maybe I could meet Jeffy sometime?"
He grinned. "Yeah, I know he'd like that. He really wants to meet you."
I was a bit shocked. "Me?"
Pony laughed. "I may have talked about you a bit."
The shock didn't ware off. I didn't expect him to talk about me at all. I smiled at him. "You know I really did miss you."
"I missed you too. A lot."
I felt my heart start beating extremely fast, and I wasn't exactly thinking straight.
"I-I have another n-note t-t-to hive you." I was breathing heavily.
"You do?" He asked hopefully.
No way of getting out of it now. "Just give me a second."
I went downstairs and quickly wrote a new one. I already knew what I was gonna say. I had been thinking about this note since I started giving them.
Ponyboy,
Friend. I hate that word. I hate being your friend, because I want to be so much more. I'm in love with you Ponyboy. Crazy, huh? Go back to all the other notes and read the first word of each.
JohnnyWhen I gave it to him, I quickly left the room, afraid of his reaction.
You don't have to go back in the story and read all the notes, I did that for you. All the notes are in the next chapter.
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FanfictionPonyboy needs help. The only problem is he doesn't know it. Only his best friend Johnny Cade knows, and only his best friend Johnny Cade can be the one to help. Because Ponyboy Curtis is slowly killing himself, and he doesn't even realize it. // Joh...
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