Into The Night

Forty-Six

I told myself I wouldn't care, that the more painful her words are, the more it would numb me. . . I was wrong.

"I need to get her out of my head, Niall." I said, my voice was quiet and it just showed how weak my willpower is when it comes to her. Shit, I didn't come here for this effect on me!

"Why?" He asked.

I shut my eyes for a moment and then I took a deep breath. "Because she's always in it! I feel like I'm going to be demented, any moment longer. She — she just lectures me one damn time about the league and now, I-- I c-couldn't even — she shouldn't have that effect on me!"

Last time, when Nathan pulled that bloody prank, I was mad at her for stopping it. I'd have forgave her easily if she didn't get in that argument with Niall and by the way, even Niall didn't understand why she was mad. And then, that Friday, she had this speech about being a leaguer and hurting everyone. Because obviously, that's what she thinks I'm trying to do. That's why I wasn't as appreciative as I always am.

Now, almost everything could actually remind me of her when I don't want to see her even in my thoughts. I couldn't even play Harvest Moon.

I ran my hand through my hair frustratedly. "Just give me this one, mate."

He nodded, "Alright, if it helps you out. Careful there."

I nodded, putting my headphones on after my beanie. That was the end of the discussion. As always, I walked my way there, even though it was snowing and the day was colder than the days before. I gave Ajax a heads up that I'm going, and since that lad have the most time in the world, he couldn't even be more happier. He said he'd invite some of his friends and he'd gladly let me borrow one of his motorcycles.

I groaned once I heard my phone rang but I answered it anyways. I'm just thankful that it was my sister but to be honest, I was a bit worried that she might scold me like mum did.

"I assume you already knew." I said immediately as a greeting.

"Well, you know mum." She replied. "What have you been up to?"

"It's nice to set fire to the rain." I said, quoting Adele's song. "Don't ask. I can't explain anything."

"You know, mum is just concerned because you're graduating." Gemma said and to be honest, I almost forgot about that fact.

"Oh." I blinked, well, I could barely recall it. "I'm sorry, then." I said.

"You still alright there, bud?" She asked.

I shrugged a bit, "I'm not in the mood for conversations, honestly." I said in a dismissive tone.

"Fine then, just checking up anyways." She said and then ended the call.

I hardly do anything, maybe that is why I don't get tired enough to sleep. It's why I wanted to go out. Even if it's a schoolday, Ajax has a lot of free time in his hands, he could whip something up.

I got to the indoor dirt track he was talking about. Outside, it seemed just like a normal, wide establishment but inside, the ceilings were definitely too high and the space was indescribably enough for the hills, slopes and turns.

People could actually race here.

Ajax greeted me and introduced me to some of his friends. Turns out they were already planning for it, he just made it earlier for doing him a favour. As far as I was concerned, the only favour I did him was the fact that because of the games I played, his father liked it a lot better.

He lent me his bike and apparently, I wasn't that concerned on the damages again. I put on every safety equipment and then later on, we raced around the track.