Fucked Over

6. Lost Ones

No, hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love

And I'm at the point of breaking
And it's impossible to shake it

I had to talk to her, I had to get awnsers to the questions I've dragged out for months. I wanted to be there for her, there all this struggle she was facing. It was a hard time for her and she would need someone.

And I would be that someone.

But I can help feeling lost

Tiffany's P.O.V

My eyes had been dry for awhile now, I couldn't cry no more tears. If you asked my why I honestly couldn't answer you on that. Was it over the fact John Stephen cheated on me? No that wasn't a surprise, he hadn't been one to commit. Or maybe it just hasn't fully sinked in that he did. I thought he changed, I thought he'd give me his all. Or maybe it's the fact, he didn't just cheat on me once... It was monthly with MY sister who was now pregnant. Or maybe the fact she was to get an abortion and the baby would never see the world we lived in. The beautiful sunsets and sunrises. The animals, or even get to experience love of any kind, or anything at all. Or maybe the fact Cameron came and defended me so quickly no matter the cost. No matter how wrong I did him he was still by my side.

I layed back down as I heard a knock at the door.

"Come in" I said hoarsely, my voice barely audible

Slowly came in John Stephen, his face was swollen. His eyes had been blood shot and his hair fell to the side instead of it's normal quiff

"Can we talk?" He pleaded

"Why?..." I whimpered

"Why what?" He questioned

"Why my sister? Why monthly? You were so clingy! Why why why?" I cried with no tears

His face fell, "it just happened, it's been happening since I first met her. You were my first, she was. In everything. I lied to you. I do love you, but I love her too" he continued to talk but I blocked out the words coming from his mouth

My heart felt numb, I couldn't speak. My life with this kid had been a lie, I gave up the best in hopes he would be better.

When I finally got the nerve to speak, I let it all out.

"I loved you, you Bitch, but you played me. I gave you everything, you spent up all my love, after all that you went behind my back and fucked my sister

I loved you beyond belief, I gave you my all. Even my virginity. What did I do wrong?

I never saw our love going south, was it even love? I even let you fuck with no condom on.

You ain't a real man, you ain't shit. Get out of my life. It's over!" I yelled

"What do you mean it's over?!" He grew frustrated

"Plain and simple" I stood my ground

"I FUCKIN TALKED HER INTO ABORTION SO WE COULD BE TOGETHER" he yelled

"You're fucking sick, leave" I said one last time. He stormed off without another word.

I ended up calling Cole and telling him, he told my that's why he always told me to be careful, he knew everything. I cried on the phone.

I've never been so broken

I've never been so lost

John Stephen's P.O.V

I walked out to the car. I got in quickly and slammed the door. I was pissed, I told her the truth, I wanted to fucking be with her

Only because Steph doesn't want you

My mind dare commented, I pushed that thought aside and called her.

"I'll leave tonight" I said as she answered

"I'm not having an abortion, you should come though" she whispered

"What?!"

" you got the nerve
To come up to me talkin' bout abortion
This my body so don't think you finna force shit
See I knew that this is how you act, so typical
Said you love me, oh, but now you flipping like reciprocals
It figures though, you Knew all the right things to say
I let you hit it raw mothafucker
Now I'm pregnant you don't wanna get involved.
Tryna take away a life, is you God mothafucker?
I don't think so
This a new life up in my stomach
Regardless if I'm your wife
This new life here I'mma love it
I ain't budging, I'll do this by my muthafucking self.

But I still don't understand how you could say that
Did you forget all those conversations that we had way back
Bout your father and you told me that you hate him
Talkin' bout he a coward and you so glad that you aint that nigga
Cause he left your mamma when she had you and he ain't shit
And here you go doin' the same shit
You ain't shit nigga!"

She had left me speechless, It was all true. My dad had left and I hated him. My stepdad replaced him at age 10. Tiffany never knew those facts about me.

"I'll be there soon. I do love you, I just never thought you'd want me" I commented

"You were with my little sister" she says barely above a whisper

"I'll be there soon" I say hanging up.

I didn't know what to do.

I've never been so lost