"This is not the right time for a joke, Tyrone. Saka isa pa, hindi ka pa nagso-sorry sakin for pissing me off the last time. Wag mo nang dagdagan." I warned him.
Wala akong naalala na hinalikan niya--
Then suddenly, everything became clear to me. Two dark brown eyes stared at me. His eyes are screaming nothing but desire. He raised his eyebrow and whispered, 'try me'.
Then he bent down to kiss me.
So... hindi panaginip yun? Totoong nangyari yun?
At si Tyrone ang gumawa sakin nun?!
"You know what?" Sabi ko. "You just lost a friend." Sabi ko tapos pinatayan siya ng phone.
Hinawakan ko yung labi ko. YUNG FIRST KISS KO SA UNGGOY NA BAKLA LANG NAPUNTA?! NO WAY!
Nagwala-wala ako sa sala at nag-ingay si Junior sa gulat. Great. Now my fucking day starts again.
May kumatok sa pinto ko. I did not make any effort to open it kasi kilala ko na kung sino yung kumakatok.
Iniluwa ng pinto ang lalaking gustong-gusto ko patayin. "Yvonne, let me explain----" I cut him off when I start to throw my things at him.
"Why do you always do that?! Tumatawag ka kahit nandyan ka lang sa pinto!!" Sigaw ko sa kanya habang binabato ko siya ng kung anu-anong makita ko.
But with his broad body, he shoved the pillows away without effort.
"Don't come near me! Sisigaw ako ng rape! One more step closer and I will kill youuuu!" Bulyaw ko sa kanya nung wala na akong madampot na unan. Ayoko namang mambato ng babasagin. Sayang.
"Yvonne. I'm sorry---"
"SORRY?! PALAGI NA LANG SORRY ANG NARIRINIG KO SAYO SA TUWING SINISIRA MO ANG ARAW KO AT NAKAKASAKIT KA NG FEELINGS!! NAKAKASAWA NA TYRONE! ASAR NA ASAR NA AKO SA MGA PANG-IINIS AT SORRY MO SAKIN TAPOS NAGAWA MO PANG GAWIN SAKIN TO?! SA KAIBIGAN MO?!?! YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME, BASTARD!! I REALLY HAAAAATE YOU!"
Hiningal ako pagkatapos kong sabihin lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. But I still feel like roaring and thundering at him again. Feeling ko kulang pa.
"Yvonne. I know there's nothing I can do to make up for what I've done--"
"Talaga!" I spat. "Sinira mo yung tiwala ko sa'yo. Sinira mo yung pagkakaibigan--"
"I just couldn't help it!" Sigaw niya. There was something in his voice that made my guts run and hide. "Nakainom din ako nung gabing yun and you were... you--"
"You took advantage of me! You just stole me my first kiss!" Naiiyak na ako.
"I know! I'm sorry!" Sabi niya. "Kaya nga sinabi ko sa'yo diba? Because I can't stand myself lying to you and I--" napahinto siya. "It was my ego, Yvonne. It's because you insulted me for being gay and I just did that to prove you wrong. I am sorry." He sighed. "My God, you are acting like a child. It was just a kiss---"
"HINDI LANG KISS YON! THAT'S MY FUCKING FIRST KISS, TYRONE!" I shouted back. Then that was it. I broke down.
"Kung sa tingin mo, I am over-reacting, then so be it. Pero alam ko na alam mo kung gaano ko pinahahalagahan yung bagay na yun. Alam mong yun lang yung bagay na ipagmamalaki ko pagdating ng panahon na may makikilala akong lalaki. It was just a kiss, yes totoo yun. Tama ka. But you don't know what it feels like."
"Hindi ka kasi babae. Hindi mo alam yung feeling na nakuha sayo yung mahalagang bagay na dapat kukunin ng may pagmamahal. You took away my first kiss without affection. Yun yung ikinagagalit ko. Lalo na yung reason mo kung bakit mo ginawa yun. Naapakan ko yung ego mo? Then, I'm sorry! You proved me wrong now! Lalaki ka na ulit. What about me?! Sa tingin mo maibabalik mo yung first kiss ko?!"
Tinignan ko kung paano niya iyuko yung ulo niya. Then he rubbed the back of his head and cursed himself under his breath.
"I am deeply sorry." He looked up at me and I saw sincerity in his eyes. "For everything. I'm sorry, Yvonne."
"Just..." sabi ko. I gulped back the lump in my throat and wiped away my tears. "Just get your ass out of my sight."
He understood me very well. He picked up my pillows from the ground and placed them back on my couch and leave without looking back.
"Fuck it," sabi ko sa sarili ko the moment he closed the door.
Ganito na ba kapag tumatanda at mag-isa? Sobra na sa pagka-drama?
I heard my phone ring. This time, tinignan ko na kung sino yung tumatawag.
"H-hello?" Sabi ko. My voice still sounds like crap.
"Good afternoon, Miss Yvonne Deladia. Wow, I'm impressed by your works." Naaalala ko yung boses niya.
"Cut the crap, when and where can we meet?" I asked. Praying that he is a good boy and he will not make things hard for me.
I heard him laugh. "You are very interesting, Miss Deladia."
"I said, when and where?" I snapped.
He laughed again. "Same place tomorrow. 9 am sharp. I'll be expecting you."
"Don't worry. I'll be there." I ended the call and throw my phone on my couch.
Breathe, Yvonne. Breathe.
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