Starting school was hard. Being around my friends and my peers made me feel empty and scared that I will get hurt more then what Mer did to me. I didn't really talk to anyone. I got more in myself then anything. I didn't talk to my friends that much or hang out with them. I felt myself distancing from them over the school year.
School days were hard. It was distracting myself from thinking of what happened between Mer and I. But it only work for a while. I got into reading more and more then I did.
Reading became my reason to get out of the real world and in the world of the story I was reading. Picturing the story in my head getting into the characters, what was happening to them, and feeling their feelings. Getting into the story means shutting out the world around me.
Life felt pretty meaningless after what happened between Mer and I. But life felt meaningless before Mer and I. Living life was and is still hard, but you have to take day by day, and when you feel like a knife or pills are the answer think of reasons to life not reasons to die.
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My Sexual Abuse Story (true story)
Non-FictionIts about some of the days I was with my boyfriend Mer. And what he did to me even though I didn't want it.
