Touring with Shawn Mendes

The Bitter Truth

All the shows were so much fun. Night after night, the fans were amazing. We did amazing covers together like, 'Never Forget You' by Zara Larsson and MNEK, 'One Dance' by Drake, Kyla and Wiz Kid, 'Work' by Rihanna and Drake, a lot of the songs involved dancing somewhat sexually towards each other. I mean he chose to sing sexy songs so we dance sexually.

Tonight we're in Paris. It's been a few months since I've last seen Jaykob. We talk everyday but it ends up pretty short due to the time difference. I miss him like crazy. I sang my songs and a cover. "Tonight I'm going to sing 'The Way' by Ariana Grande because I'm feeling this song right now."

"I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it

You give me that kind of something
Want it all the time, need it everyday
On a scale of one to ten I'm at a hundred
Never get enough, I can't stay away

If you want it, I got it, I got it everyday
You can get whatever you need from me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you
And I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper

So don't you worry, baby, you got me

I got a bad boy, I must admit it (hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (hey)

I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)
The way you love me

Oh, it's so crazy you get my heart jumping
When you put your lips on mine
And, honey, it ain't a question (q-question)
'Cause, boy, I know just what you like

So If you need it, I got it, I got it everyday
Be your lover, your friend, you'll find it all in me
Stay by your side, I'll never leave you
And I ain't going nowhere 'cause you're a keeper

So don't you worry, baby, you got me

I got a bad boy, I must admit it (hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (hey)

I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)
The way I love you

So don't you worry, baby, you got me

I got a bad boy, I must admit it (hey)
You got my heart, don't know how you did it (hey)
And I don't care who sees it, babe
I don't wanna hide the way I feel when you're next to me (hey)

I love the way (I love the way)
I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it, I love it)

I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
I love the way (I love it, I love it)
Baby, I love the way (I love the way you make me feel)
Ooh, I love the way (I love it)
The way I love you

The way I love you, (you), you, you, yeah, the way

I love the way you make me feel
I love it, I love it
I love the way you make me feel
I love it
The way I love you"

I got off stage and was embraced by a hug from Shawn. It's our thing I guess. He went on stage and my phone buzzed. It was from my friend Sydney

Sydney- Hey, how's the tour going?
Ashley- It's really fun. I'm enjoying it a lot. How are things going back home?
Sydney- That's what I wanted to talk to you about
Ashley- What do you mean?
Sydney- I don't know how to tell you this, but I think Jaykob is cheating on you
Ashley- What?!
Sydney- After practice I just saw him walk home with Sarah. I followed them and I saw them kissing
Ashley- He's cheating on me for his ex?!
Sydney- I'm so sorry this has been going on. You don't deserve this
Ashley- Thank you for telling me this. And no, I don't deserve this
Sydney- You should confront him soon
Ashley- I'm about to
Sydney- Again, I'm so sorry
Ashley- It's not your fault

I walked to the tour bus so I can talk to him alone. I call this him.

"Hey baby." "Don't hey baby me. I know the truth." "What are you talking about?" "I know your cheating on me for Sarah." "Why would I cheat on you for my ex?" "I don't know you tell me." "Where is this coming from?" "Save it. Sydney told me everything. She saw you two kissing. You're only making it worse by lying to me." "You're right. I'm sorry. I've just been so lonely. I needed someone-" "Well I'm lonely too. I could've hooked up with Shawn and you would've never known about it. Saying you're lonely is no excuse. How long has this been going on?" "Two weeks after you left." "And you accuse me of cheating. I can't believe you." "Ashley, I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." "No your not. You knew what you were doing. Goodbye Jaykob."

Jaykobs POV
She hung up on me. She's gone and it's my fault. What the hell was I thinking. "Hey baby, who was that?" Sarah asked. "We're done." "What?" "You heard me. I should've never come back to you." "You came back to me because I can do things that Ashley couldn't." "No you can't. She was a better girlfriend than you ever were. Get out of here. I never want to see you again." "Fine. But you'll miss me." "No I won't."

Ashley's POV
I hung up and started crying my eyes out. I can't believe he did this. What did I do to deserve this. I thought he loved me. We were together for over 2 years and to have it end with him cheating. It's not right. Everyone thought we'd last forever. We even thought so. I get a text from Shawn.

Shawn- Hey, where are you? We were supposed to do our duet together
Ashley- Get on the bus. I'll tell you then
Shawn- Okay

I continue crying my eyes out. My heart feels so empty without Jaykob. He was my better half. He always brought out the best of me. He was always there for me. And now he's gone. By now my makeup is smearing. Shawn walked in and noticed me crying.